The 41th day without her

holiday for four day... because of hari raya.... my parents and my sister and others relative just went Singapore.. i didn't follow.. these few days, i am busying go out... ^^ this noon, i went ate ice with si fatt guai... then actually i wanted to watch movie with my "buddy"... everything was fine at first.. then he said changed to small genting then go black hole for drink(alcohol) but at last everything canceled.. bullshit again!!! the only way went out was with c.wai, s.ying and k.hoe.. actually we wanted to discuss whether tomorrow noon wanted to go out or not.. but at last, result with none... bull bull bullshit!! my mood was not in a good condition.. when we were going back.. so lucky that didn't happened any accident.. but almost.. so scary.. ^^.. sorry k.hoe and s.ying.. i won't drive with emotion any more.. i will try my best to avoid... that time, i really moody about piGhead.. tomorrow night, i am still considering am i going to the celebration... i knew that i will be silent for the whole process... i think mostly i will go... maybe.. i cut my hair today.. a new branded of me.. a girl style hair.... ^^ have to style it then only looks nice, wise.. ^^ without styled my hair, it looks like shit! ugly !!!!! pigheaD, i really wanted to find you... miss you a lot... can't use any words to describe how much i miss you.. this 41 days, i really so blurred with my life.. i hope ... ... ... night!