The 48th day without her

yesterday night, i canceled my movie plan and joined sa poh's friends for drink, c.wai also there and k.hoe came at last. good news and bad news!!! before bad news, i said my good news first , i checked my eyes at eyes specialist, i can wear glasses !! yeah! =) left eye 70++ while right eye 20++. last time i always wanted to wear glasses.. now, the chance come true.. but for my face, the shape of my face not suit to wear glasses.. wuwu~~ bad news come! in my 17 years life, i cried twice the most, one was when i am form three, another was this evening! both of this, this was the first time i cried so seriously! i think i won't mention what happened through here. is related my last year birthday's present and all about my brother, he such an idiot and rubbish! 23 years old still don't know think! wasted time! don't know learn from mistake! still think that he is always the right..! you think you are MR RIGHT ya? no, you are not! you are MR WRONG!! some times some memories we can't buy it.. but he destroy my unforgettable memory! at that time, i wanted to call pighead but i know i cant... therefore i massaged si fatt guai, she was outside. at that moment, i need some one console me, talk to me. lastly, i called su yin. we chatted for about 8 minutes because i finished my hand phone's credit. my eyes was very "zhong"... wuwu~~ at night, i wanted go out and not staying at home. actually i wanted find tan ting but she was dating with sa poh. at this i need some one who can accompany me, i don't want stay at home.. but disappointed.. while watching movie waiting for sleep, friend called me for celebrate for her birthday.. then i drove because no more space for me.. i slept at 5am.. cool man! super the tired! first time i saw so the cake so big.. every one eat until want vomit.. wuwu~~

The 47th day without her

group work? what is group work? what is the define of group work? next week have to pass up this project... we just done it less than half but i heard my friend joseph said that ours is done the most in whole class.. happy? i don't think so... give idea can improve our project, but give idea without action, whats the different between give an idea and didn't action? equals to none! well... i hope it can be done before due date.. gamble with love?? am i gambling with love? i don't think so.. but one of my friend said that i gambling with her... called me don't gamble anymore... don't wait chance.. action now to get chance.. wuwu ~.~ what i got to do? i just can pray for her -exam good luck!! mentally support her whenever she is sad or in a trouble matter... don't later will go watch resident evil or not... i did messaged my friend and called her but still can't get through her... wuwu~.~

The 46th day without her

wuwu~~ i wanted to sleep more today... super tired... because of . . . "boil porridge" wit sa poh... more than 2 hours.. oh my god... sorry that not trusted you but at last i also will trust you, who called you as sa poh... i learn a theory called theory Y... she taught me when i told her what happened to me.. there are 2 theory which is theory Y and theory X, Y is positive while X is negative. that means she wanted me to be happy.. ^^ sometimes many incident that had happened cannot say that forget about it, then will be forget.. the scars inside my heart is the history of me. today i knew a new friend, his name is "kent". quite a handsome boy.. actually we had been same class for certain subject.. at first, i thought he was a cool guy that don't like to talk but when today we helped each other, i felt that this guy not as cool as i imagine.. same as love stuff, i don't what is her thinking now, i can felt that she avoiding me... is very obviously, i knew it since i drink with my friends.. i felt so sad about what had happened to her.. i really wanted to accompany her... give her caring as much as i can... every girls need cares.. i knew she needs more and more cares... she is going to have her final exam if i am not mistaken.. today, i think an idea for myself. my birthday is coming this november, i don't is she coming back to celebrate with me or not... she said that will accompany(last time).. therefore, i planned that tell her that i will be waiting her at a restaurant near by our area, i will wait her about few hours for her to come, if she don't appear, i think i know what should i do... but, if this step goes wrong... i will regret again in my life.. i am still considering... sa poh knew that i don't want they celebrate for me... i also don't know why... and i can't said i 100% don't want they celebrate... just . . . =( well, pighead, i hope you will appreciate our relation, our sweetest memory..

The 45th day without her

my life was supporting with several of friend such as- eefang(australia), chow hong, siao ying, pui yee. not bad what.. even i lost trusted through several of friend, i still have many supporters! i storied my sadness to 2 friend yesterday, one is xiao hua chi, another is p.y mei... i felt more better... while i am storying to them, i really sad... but when i turned on the music, i felt more and more better.. i heard a friend said before, if she sad, listening to music, everything will be fine... she is sa poh... she likes "tong fang shen qi", a crazy fans of them especially a guy called U-KNOW. stressful always come when semester is going to end.. i still have many assignment to go on and today added one more project which is capturing and recording, group of at least 5, our group have 7.. i started like my new style.. some will laugh towards me but i won't mind, because this decision was made by myself.. i can't regret, i will just appreciate it.. as well as love stuff. i didn't regret like her, i will appreciate what we did before, our memories will won't lost in my mind! i often saw her online while i online, her sister was one of the coolest girl... i did chat with her recently but until half way, she will be disappear. =( always like that one. later on, i will try my best to do my assignment! thanks my friends who support me!!

The 44th day without her

a cool barbecue party... first time i drunk so much alcohol-beer, red wine and whiskey. i hope can get drunk.... but just dizzy... k.tat vomited .. ^^ yesterday, we played until 1something... because k.tat can not carry on more alcohol already.. if he continue, he might over night at there or i drive... =) friend can be trusted in our life for forever? for me, i changed my view... my trusted friend is becoming less and less.. i wanted to be alone.. seriously, i get very disappointed to my buddy... lied to me because of ... he said that, "is buddy only tell me the truth.." what the hack man! bull shit!~ recently i am not in a happy mood.. i just wanted to get drunk... sleep well... no think, no doubt, no worries in my life.. if these come to my life, my life equals to disable person. i just finished a movie "shui yue fung wan". i learned that we can failed in career, studies, ... because it can be stand up again and do it from the beginning but once relationship lost, it will hard to recover the relationship. same as me and pigheaD.. once our relationship stop, i will lost her as well as she will lost me too.. therefore, i really hope she give me one more chance.. i don't want to lost you!!

The 43th day without her

Happy? very funny!!!....i didn't even get a little bit happy.. i messaged her but she didn't reply... i had took the initiative to message her... what you want ya? about yesterday night party, i looked very moody... sit alone... didn't talk much... just different from myself.. but i tried my best to cheer after the party... actually we decided to go black hole for drink... but at last we didn't, we went to imbi road for "tong sui", full of people... then we changed our plan to kepong.. that shop didn't open, maybe closed already. therefore we went 1st station... i told this secret to m.hoe... i don't he can keep his promise or not.. i trust him, therefore i told him... hope he keep his promise.. i don't want lost YOU... i admit that i regret to my action but i don't have choice.... hope you give me a chance or maybe let me know what you feel or what you want me to do.... let me know better than i don't anything... i messaged her twice but she also didn't reply.. she angry me? or ???? i wanted to know what she is thinking about me... i am very tired now... i slept at about 4am... 8something get up for scouting.... oh my god... my assignment!! later night, i have a barbecue party at friend's house... lucky tomorrow is holiday.. yahoo~~ pighead, i still like you very much..................................... time will allow me forget you? i don't wish to... i remembered you said don't want lost me......... do you remember???

The 42th day without her

what will going to happen today??? am i excited to know?? yes... i admit but i seems like don't what to do.. bullshit me!!! spent most time watched on "shui yue fong wan".. so tired... tonight, what am i got to do at there? cheer? or what? =( may be after their celebration, i will go black hole with k.tat, but don't know will him "put aeroplane" .. before go there, i will go play archery to open my mood... ^^ happpy...!!