The 120th day without her

yesterday night... wuwu~.~ after house warming, i wanted to call piG out for giving her the necklace but she refuse, reason of quite busy.. then i asked others two friend but same.. that time, i don't want back home so early.. want find some one chat.. at last i called k.hoe they all... we went sentul there have drink...quite nice and warm environment... yankher told me about some bad things during the christmas countdown.. said bad things of her... but what can i do? pretending oh ya.. smile... when go back.. i almost get involve in accident, the road at chong hwa gombak there... i speed... drive with emotion... suddenly a my V car came out... lucky the opposite road don't have car... thanks god.. i don't want lost her... scouting in the morning until afternoon.. many problems have to settle for those members... wuwu~.~ tomorrow is the day of all people waiting to countdown and welcome 2008.. i had plan at first which is planned to go ONE UTAMA.. before i went to china, i booked munhoe and suetling.. when i called them just now, suetling told me she is going with others... that time, i really freaking "fire", well... what to do? just fine.. and bye.. besides, there are few people i damn hate.. i don't like them... their sucks attitude.. their action.. many more.. others friend also booked.. really no mood to border but i really want to go.. i called piGhead too.. chatted with her also.. when she said she want .... i keep saying don't!! don't!!.. because i thought she going to say she want sleep and bye bye.. at last i only know she wanted to bath.. oh my god.. what's the time? even we didn't chat much, i take this opportunity to ask her... whether she still interested with me? answer is NO.. i am happy to heard that because at least i knew what she think.. i didn't sad much.. just no feeling.. like no direction.. hard to describe.. maybe this called love.. i saw my horoscope.. it says me "Try not to worry too much about that big decision you're facing -- though it will be tough, if you can hold off on rushing into something, you should be pretty pleased with the eventual outcome." after chat with piG, i felt this sentences quite good.. then i called suyin..