The 43th day without her

Happy? very funny!!!....i didn't even get a little bit happy.. i messaged her but she didn't reply... i had took the initiative to message her... what you want ya? about yesterday night party, i looked very moody... sit alone... didn't talk much... just different from myself.. but i tried my best to cheer after the party... actually we decided to go black hole for drink... but at last we didn't, we went to imbi road for "tong sui", full of people... then we changed our plan to kepong.. that shop didn't open, maybe closed already. therefore we went 1st station... i told this secret to m.hoe... i don't he can keep his promise or not.. i trust him, therefore i told him... hope he keep his promise.. i don't want lost YOU... i admit that i regret to my action but i don't have choice.... hope you give me a chance or maybe let me know what you feel or what you want me to do.... let me know better than i don't anything... i messaged her twice but she also didn't reply.. she angry me? or ???? i wanted to know what she is thinking about me... i am very tired now... i slept at about 4am... 8something get up for scouting.... oh my god... my assignment!! later night, i have a barbecue party at friend's house... lucky tomorrow is holiday.. yahoo~~ pighead, i still like you very much..................................... time will allow me forget you? i don't wish to... i remembered you said don't want lost me......... do you remember???

The 42th day without her

what will going to happen today??? am i excited to know?? yes... i admit but i seems like don't what to do.. bullshit me!!! spent most time watched on "shui yue fong wan".. so tired... tonight, what am i got to do at there? cheer? or what? =( may be after their celebration, i will go black hole with k.tat, but don't know will him "put aeroplane" .. before go there, i will go play archery to open my mood... ^^ happpy...!!

The 41th day without her

holiday for four day... because of hari raya.... my parents and my sister and others relative just went Singapore.. i didn't follow.. these few days, i am busying go out... ^^ this noon, i went ate ice with si fatt guai... then actually i wanted to watch movie with my "buddy"... everything was fine at first.. then he said changed to small genting then go black hole for drink(alcohol) but at last everything canceled.. bullshit again!!! the only way went out was with c.wai, s.ying and k.hoe.. actually we wanted to discuss whether tomorrow noon wanted to go out or not.. but at last, result with none... bull bull bullshit!! my mood was not in a good condition.. when we were going back.. so lucky that didn't happened any accident.. but almost.. so scary.. ^^.. sorry k.hoe and s.ying.. i won't drive with emotion any more.. i will try my best to avoid... that time, i really moody about piGhead.. tomorrow night, i am still considering am i going to the celebration... i knew that i will be silent for the whole process... i think mostly i will go... maybe.. i cut my hair today.. a new branded of me.. a girl style hair.... ^^ have to style it then only looks nice, wise.. ^^ without styled my hair, it looks like shit! ugly !!!!! pigheaD, i really wanted to find you... miss you a lot... can't use any words to describe how much i miss you.. this 41 days, i really so blurred with my life.. i hope ... ... ... night!

The 40th day without her

FUCKING DAMN hate my fucking brother!! betray me!!! what kind of brother? last time i always protect him by not telling mum anything about he smoke, he went out silently at midnight, now? i just chit chattering with si fatt guai 3-5am.. before that, i rushing my auto cad assignment... my sir said "great" on my work when he viewed... at night, me, c.wai, s.ying, k.hoe and s.ling went to night market.. i thought that was just a while... at last, i get home at 12something.. bullshit! i bathed with a super cheap soap only!! my parents locked their room, didn't left any soap for me to bath... so sad... after night market, they decided go k.hoe's house watch ghost movie.. before went there, they fetch me back and had my dinner.. because i haven't eat anything... at k.hoe's house- stupid bored ghost movie, then we changed to funny movie.. watched a bit then every one went off don't want watch... wuwu~~ then we used different ID to chat with different people... quite bad but fun... my heart felt not quite comfortable towards her... don't know how to describe...

The 39th day without her

wow!! i slept for 3 hours only!! 5 in the morning only sleep... ^^ my whole body was hot.... my eyes were dry and tired... i done my assignment at 3am. while i am going to sleep, i saw "si fatt guai(ghost)" online again at 2 something.. she said her college friends went to her house for surprise.. at first, everyone thought that she won't have a happy's birthday included her self buton the contrary she was happy with her birthday. she happy, i also happy.. ^^ i still haven't say why i slept at 5am... because i gave 2hours to si fatt guai as her birthday gift... so special.. ^^ we chatted until my maid get up and eat her breakfast... she fast(puasa).. me and her super tired ... i think that at college, she will became a special panda bear.. i still conscious with what am i thinking, doing... i have to be fair to everyone.. every action that i make , have to consider deeply, if not . . . what will be happen if a person's life full of failure in love stuff? won't get marriage? scare of coupling? ^^ i also don't.. i knew si fatt guai was a good girl.. . . . well, whole day just full of tiredness... i felt happy with my assignment because sir said GREAT!! while showing to him.. piGheaD is coming back soon... even thought i said don't want to meet each other, i am still looking forward to see her.. like last time... (a moment like this)... sweet memories... will our sweet memories continue???

The 38th day without her

getting fed up with my auto cad assignment! tomorrow have to pass up but i still haven't done it... rushing and rushing.. full of tiredness. just now, some one suddenly asked me a private question which is did i like her before? for my answer, i admitted i did.. he told me his sadness, giving up her to let her more happy.. less stress... besides, he said some one seems like destroying his plan. at this moment i seriously felt guilty! in my mind, i think that i am the one who "destroyed his plan"? my mood sudden changed.. at the same time, i am fed up with my assignment.., i called sa poh immediately and tell her... so bad mood! piG seems like very very unhappy... i felt that wanted to do something to let her be happy.. but how?

The 37th day without her

my folder left at college! damn mad about it! many stuff inside my folder! there was a original letter to pigheaD... i don't want to lost it... hopefully can get back tomorrow.. she seems like still moody.... really no hope to happy? this wednesday is the last day for GSC cinema to show old movie... i wanted to watch transformer..!! and wednesday is sa poh birthday... she still be irritating with her problem.. I had tried my best to help her.. hope she can make it as invisible.. ^^ this Saturday, they are celebrating her birthday, maybe include others 2 which is joey and laicheng. I said to sa poh that I won’t be going if one of them are there,,, ^^ am I joking or serious? last year, I didn’t bought any present to her, just celebrated with her at “add oil station” with chow hong.. I gave her a special postcard which is from a diskette. ^^ this year, am I not going to buy any gift to her? still at the level of considering... will “she” going also? if I see her, what respond should I give? hai, long time didn’t see you, how are you recently? funny me.. so confuse..!! just finished one of my group project (fitting room) included the explanation. our English are damn poor! I felt that mostly is translated from Chinese sentence.. arrr!!