what if happiness and sadness mixed together??

recently i was start my new life.. i enjoy it very much.. happy memory wont last easily in my mind.. i hope, i wont make my wrong decision.. i trust myself again... time will prove to me, you, and everyone... meanwhile.. inside the happiness, there is sadness.. ones happiness come, sacrifice comes.. what if both mixed and come together? starting a new life equals sacrifice another life.. hope this life end longer as you can!! god will always bless you.. as well as me..
i don't know what the hell i am writing... screw!!!

The 206 - 212th day without her

my 3rd idea... what he said... guess ...?? he said - if you like it your design, go ahead... then think of your spaces... i was not quite happy with it... tuesday night, i was spending more than 6 hours for my scale drawing and spaces model.. and when i shown to him. 1st - ask me where is your scale ruler... then he "screw" me... 2nd - my scale all wrong!! out of scale!! 3rd - ask me learn about scale.. i was extremely "fire" .... but he some times he will walk to me, like "an wei" me... touch on my shoulder.. then i feel more calm down..
friend's birthday gathering.. =.= (skip) ... assignment...... tuesday, angel called me to fetch her to somewhere else get something.. that day i was late.. so, late to fetch her.. after that fetch her to tuition... she is cute with glasses... ^^ i said - if want me fetch, 1st, you should be my girl friend.. she said "o"... =.=`` lame... craps... lolz... when fooling her, she was very cute.. but she was cool, she will provide a style of herself... comes to kee... recently i was quite close with her... chatted every day... a nice girl..
tired.. to be continue

The 199 - 205th day without her

this week is the most stress among my 3rd semester.. especially design studio... by mr fabian.. he is a good lecturer but i think is over good... maybe he target was set high toward his student.. and the last project, i was one of his student... pity? or good for us? he banned my idea twice..!! my character of my project is a dancer - jolin. for my 1st idea, mostly form was square - he said, do you think jolin likes this house (design). well, 1st time i was ok with it.. so i changed... 2nd idea, was some sort of ballet dancer (movement). he said - it was not enough graceful.. lines of the dancer movement.. banned again. i was very angry.. i don't know i was angry myself or angry him.. may be both.. angry myself - didn't put 100% affect on my works.. angry him - over smart with himself.. ^^ well... i also busy with my services part of my electricity.. seems like lack of time done in time before due date.. haiz... blame of my lazy-ness... actually, i did half way earlier... cause of lazy... i was busy with scout stuff also... what is my time management... where??? "gg"... saturday night, i went to seremban chung hwa for campfire.. it wasn't fun because of raining... =( next day morning, scout activity... ipoh scout came to our school for teaching us new stuff... tired but no time to relax.. where is my ideas?????? kayli just back from hong kong.. quite surprised me when i miss call her, and she call back me.. she just back from hongkong.. wow.. i also wanted to go.. maybe... will go on may.. recently, i knew a girl.. called shye kee.. mm.. she quite a innocent girl also.. always felt not enough sleep.. =) hopefully to know more about her..

The 192th - 198th day without her

the more busy, the more stress... why? because of my studio...... and the lecturer.... MR FABIEN!! he was a special guy!! the legend... stop about him.. well... he was the lecturer who gave me such a pressure... sucks me during individual discussion... the heat in my body raising up from 0 - 100c.
the coming discussion, i get better feed back... did i do a good research? mm... maybe, maybe not... i was busy with various thing!! scout(junior), scout gathering, studio, assignment... time management is suck........ i went to a PAM lecturer series talk about sustainable building by a french.. damn bored!! no point!! wasted time and money.. ... . . . met edward, also a lecturer.. asked me weather interested work as part time as model making in his working company.. well... i guess so... hopefully.. then we rush to another talk by an artist... .... for me, bored.. because i am not damn good in listening and talking skill (english).. hauyee n yc also went for the talk... "kiasu" people... huhhh.... thrusday, today sy plan canceled... i dated angel for lunch, but at last she reject because wanted to join her friend then we went eat "ice" at air panas... this was pretty bad... she was not eating but watching me... cool and silence... i wanted to get into her world.. but i failed... sorry.... after that i went to cut my hair.. then following by suyiN.. chatting around at kfc... she pretty pity of scold by her mum... cheer up girl!! =) tired now!! tomorrow start training camp 3 days 3 nights... =( monday- model...!! shit!!

The 185th - 191th day without her

busy like hell.... even didn't sleep for whole damn night with my good friend, joseph... because of my outdated computer... my 3D max software can't support the graphic when i do further.. shit! bullshit!! therefore i have no choice.... due date is tomorrow... what can i do? lucky the digital lab was booked by some seniors... pieeew... some more there is a exam for building services... 20% of the overall marks...!! damn my asssssssss... that whole night, whole day was crazy... read equals to didn't read... what the "screw" man!!!! my friend, joseph prepared some "cha siew bao" for us as supper... thanks... at last i done mine part, comes him also... then exam... when sitting in the annex, the exam hall, first, it was cold... second, i was tired, third, i felt that i wanted to sleep besides exam... this time might be "GG", which mean DIE!! if i get 10 out of 20, that was super extremely lucky!!! for my previous test, i get 12 over 20... that was consider lucky also... because, i knew i had many wrong answer... so why still get more than half... perhaps, i better than those who study more hard... thanks god and my lucks... after exam, we went to one utama shopping complex for movie, 10000bc... this movie was quite nice... it is my style.. i like some soft of old war style movie... i hate those who give comment as this movie was really sucks!!! hey, please... if this is not your type of movie, just say not my type... don't say sucks.....!!! even is, please low down your voice, talk between your friend and not to whole "village"!!!

The 178th - 184th day without you

Finally, i knew the truth... pighead has boy friend already.. when that moment i asked her.. my heart really broke down.. but i am happy to know the truth, at least i know she has boy friend already.. the next day, my mood turned back to normal.. that night, i called ling.. we chatted quite long.. even i felt weird, may be we didn't chat for about more than one month.. i expected to update more.. but she has more sad stuff... ~.~ wuwu... recently i was busying with my studio work.. the day before submittion date, i was rushing and rushing my tracing work... sucks!! because many curve... i slept around 5a.m and wake up around 8a.m... =..= thrusday, me, t.t and ling went the garden to watch movie... wow.. it's high class!! all couple seats.. for student price is 15Rm!!! but if with belover, its worth.. vantage point is the movie we watch.. its quite special... but . . . bored a bit of the special.. friday - sunday, i went to kuala selangor for site visit as study.. cool at first.. damn bad at middle and end.. 1 first experience sucks camping... wuwu..~.~ came back that day, i was hungry.. therefore i called someone accompany me and she is "teh siao ying"!! ^^ x

The 171th - 177th day without her

my friend lost his wallet.. pity.... recently just busying with my studies.. 3D max, studio, building services, building construction... all sucks... coming friday, there is a small exam for building construction... wuwu~.~ wednesday, we went to chwen new house overnight after study.. we went to play basketball... wow.. damn "geng"... we just cheap ass... so tired.... friday night, after scout meeting, i went to drink with leemun at uma rami at jalan ipoh there.. we chatted a lot of our stuff.. "ahiz''''''