The 62th day without her

i sicked... afternoon, sa poh messaged me that want to drink... i refuse her because i am not in a good condition... fever too... head felt pain and dizzy... really hope some one will beside me.. accompany me.. give me care... only 2 person gave me care- one is kayli, one is si fatt guai.. wuwu~.~

The 61th day without her

Continue yesterday(this morning)... at noon, we have to present our project work before pass up... and another work just pass it up that's it. our miss very disappointed to out presentation and the project we modify.. sorry miss.. i can't give any comment to my group work because, at the last few days, i didn't help on much.... i just rushing my own work... forget about it.. it was over.. after that we went sunway for movie, me joseph chun yee choong wai. we watched "bullet and brain".. quite ok... after that we walk around with our tiredness... that time i was hungry and my stomach still not in a good condition.. but i still eat because very hungry, scare of gastric.. after meal, my stomach more more more worst.. wuwu~.~ please cure me... before went back, kay li cell phone still with me, so i passed to her at her school, and that night was her form 6 prom night.. then i went there a while... i quite like it.... long time don't have that feel.. i met up chien hueu and man keat, both of them is my britich council tuition friend. i reached home about 11 something... super extremely tired... and not comfortable... after bath, after get "!@#$%^&" then i went to have a sweet sleep... =)

The 60th day without her

wow... the day i wait had came... which is presentation.. ^^ i waked up early also than usual then styled and dressed smart.... actually i quite confident but i scared forgotten what i wanted to say... lucky at my turn.. i quite satisfy myself.. this time, they used view cam to record our presentation. before my turn came, sir keep on talking with me... eee... he gay me... ^^ touched me a lot... vomit~~ after i presented, i asked sir, how was my presentation? he said "ke yi la". ~.~ then i said, means? rating 1-5, how many? later he calculated the marks for me.. i get ... ... .... 7.9 over 10. it's quite satisfy me.. yeah! happy day without fieriness.. i going to die!! tomorrow have to pass up assignment... i just done it half way. after class, we stay back quite long... i get back home almost reach 8. after dinner, we decided to go kwee how's house to rush, but canceled!! wuwu ~.~ then i decided to go chun yee's house.. i online a while.. i saw pighead online also therefore, i took out my brave a click her~

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

helo.. there?

ytd did u ask me smt?

xx says:

没有

xx says:

那个是ｖｉｒｕｓ

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well.. Ok...

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

hw r u?
xx says:

eerr

xx says:

mayb nOt bad

xx says:

still ok lar

xx says:

havt die yet

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

u stil wan cool war wit me??

xx says:

no

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

bt... did u angry me ?

xx says:

duno

xx says:

No feeling Now

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

no feeling nw means?

xx says:

no angry lar

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

before tat? before u start no feelin, did u angry me?

xx says:

dunNo

xx says:

mayb No

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

revising?

xx says:

no

xx says:

so many ppl chatting

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well.. last question b4 i stop,

our relation ended? i juzt wanted to noe.. i really mis u alot..

xx says:

ooo

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

?? har

means

xx says:

if u dun wan end

xx says:

can dun end de

xx says:

i mean friend..

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well... if nt bout "fren"?

xx says:

DunNo

xx says:

Now i nt interest wif tat

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

how about lik tis, we maintain the relation "fren" as last time? can? others relation, we dun talk bout it til some day.. ok mou?

xx says:

o

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

can i cal u pighead? ^^

xx says:

no

xx says:

dun wan

xx says:

im cool gal

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well... nx time oli think,,

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i gotto go out le..

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i stil love n mis u.. tats all.. bye bye.. rmbed wat u said "o"

xx says:

ok

xx says:

bye

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i really dunwan lost u... as u said b4..!

These was what we chatted... actually i quite happy enough.. better than don't what she thinking.. before went chun yee's house, i went to find kayli for have a drink. she always say some one quite similar with me... ~.~ tomorrow, is my last day of semester and die day for me, i still wasting time drink with friend.. =.= when i wanted to find my friend, i can't get him through his cell phone and house phone... i was so mad .... kayli borrowed one of her cell phone to me.. thanks her a lot... at last, lucky i can get through him.. my stomach felt weird weird, not feeling well when drink with kay li... at my friend's house, while doing our own assignment, my stomach started not feeling well.. until midnight 3 something almost 4a.m, we went to Seven Eleven(711) for supper... maggie mee... i felt better after served but, when reached his house continue our work, i started not feeling well again... before 5am, my friend can't stand his tiredness then went to sleep. i continue my work until 5 something near 6am, i went to sleep a while... we waked up 730am to continue... rushing and rushing until 11something, before went to college, we ate at outside, my stomach felt more worst.... ~.~ help me...

The 59th day without her

boring day!!... no point came to college but we have to, have to pass up a portfolio draft for our project. we still went to college as usual to do our solid construction project. chit chattering, fooling around, crapping around... day gone by like this... is this cool?? ^^ maybe.. yes no yes no.. at evening, i rush my design theory assignment.. while rushing.. suddenly ... came a sudden... pighead message me by msn... that time i "ngong" already. she said "is it ok if I add this pic to my new slideshow?" Then i answered her : "huhh?? are you askin me?? every of ur pic oso nice..." that time her msn shown as appear offline. before i wanted to offline, she replied "wanna see my pics before i send em to face book?" it was so weird.. asking something like this with appear offline.. wuwu~.~ actually i also already happy enough, =)

The 58th day without her

Bullshit!!! anyone know that, when a person scold "bullshit", what it means? the person funny? the person lame? the person happy? the person angry? maybe.. for me, i damn angry!! i waked up early to style my hair, dressed smart ... when i reached college, i getting more nervous than usual, it's normal. after get into class, sir said XXX, YYY, ZZZ, .... to have delay to next class which is wednesday.. that time, my fieriness seems like wanted to kill some one!! no choice.. after lunch, we stay back a while then went back... sad.... if pighead is here for me, my sad will fly away lu~~

The 57th day without her

Today, rover scout went to Taman Pertanian, i didn't follow because i don't have time to play anymore. tomorrow, i have to present and whole week i will be rushing and rushing. oh my gosh!! actually i decided not to go for scouting but my master called me to have a look on them therefore i went there a while... after having breakfast with parents, i just started my work. after i done my presentation slide, i keep on practicing and practicing. until evening, rain and storm came, just switched off the computer.. ~.~ night, i continued practice and watch movie(tian ji bian) ... ^^ recently, me and kay li keep in touch often.. she quite a nice girl... for me, pighead is more nicer.. ^^

The 56th day without her

wake up early in the morning for play basketball at TAR College. am i enjoy this match? maybe i am not a good player. missed many shoot.. wuwu~.~ came back home, tired like hell. tonight my mum and dad going out for wedding dinner therefore i decided to bring my sister out for dinner with my friend. afternoon time, i rush for my assignment because i knew that tonight i wont be doing or using this computer. before go for dinner, si fatt guai come to my house first. she cut her hair... quite nice =) my father get shock when he come inside my room... ^^ we said that meet at about 7, but we delay until almost 8 only arrived there ~.~ wuwu.. half way, kay li called me... wow! she finished my 55th day of my story... the first cool girl i had never seen, some more she knew who is that girl... clever!! i admire her.... wise people is the coolest person! she did wrote something in her blog... she said that i familiar with a guy... i would like to share this which is what she wrote to me :

俊豪友

刚刚一次过看完你的部落格，那五十二天……

你让我想起了一些事，因为你实在太像一个男生了……

谢谢你告诉了我身边的许多事，好多里头的内容我都听过。

才发现其实你不是当我是泛泛之交。

以前有个男生很像你，不过女主角是我。

曾经跟他很靠近，他再网上爱上了我的诗，

后来发现是他的同班同学——我写的，他喜欢了我。

他曾经跟好多女生在一起过，

在他的口中，没有女生拒绝过他，而我，是第一个。

我对他没有信心，因我很敏感。

他是我前男友的兄弟。

我不能接受。

他了解。

他不断的付出，好多的事情了，我快要忘了。

我只记得他做了好多好多的东西，让我对他有信心。

他写了好多东西给我，打了好多关心的电话。

有一天我被他感动了，我抱住了他。

他很记得，那一次的回忆。

过后，我依然拒绝了他。

原因？我忘了。

我只记得，那是我的问题，不是他不好。

我觉得很难受。

而他，比我更难受，他很了我两年。

两年，我没直视过我，没特地和我打招呼。

我全然不知道，他受得伤，好深。

今年，他离校。

之前他发了一封讯息给我，

说以前他恨了我好久，为什么从前的回忆到现在只能是一种幻影?

可是他说每每我大方地向他打招呼，他觉得自己很小器。

他决定，把我放进回忆里。

那是他曾经的爱。

他在高一那年打算等我们在一起后送我一条项链，

可是最后他送了我一幅画，说着的是我们不会有的结局。

他知道我常生病，常不开心。

他比我更知道我。

现在的他，在taylor's。

他比我更知道几时考试，时时提醒我不要生病，多照顾。

我依然内疚。

我不知道，我心中的疤痕伤害了他。

这是为什么我那么敏感。没人知道我是这样的一个女生。

朋友你常说：“不像你喔……”

这才是我，那脆弱、敏感、受伤害的我。

"Stil misssing u randomly"

"sorry i drunk yesterday, but i stil mis u."

我是否该后悔,还是这就是他要给我的折磨？

我不知道。可是我知道，我们不可能会在一起了。

我知道他好，可是我知道我不好。

不想他在他女朋友面前还想着我，我没那么好让你继续爱下去。

对不起，samuel，我只能对你说。

除了谢谢你曾经的深爱，再也没有什么说了。

俊豪，你太像他了。

that's all.... conclusion, what i did is just because of love a girl.. i hope one day pig will understand me as my friend.. whole day gone just like this.. i started seldom see pighead... am i still miss her? or am i slowly forgotten her? wuwu~.~