The 36th day without her

these few day i keep going out, my dad seems like not happy with me... but i am 17.. going to 18... i know night time is danger... i knew they worried about me but i will always be careful.. sorry that i am rude on you.. morning, i went to scouting... so tired... i get back home after teaching.. spending about 2 hours to replace my blog.. i wanted to go bath after this blog.. then have to rush my project if i am not tired.. ^^ i wish to see her online now, but i didn't see her.... vei vei vei... i very miss you... can you feel my miss? i wanted to tell her i super miss her... but how? message her? call her? i don't know what respond she will give me, positive? negative? am i waiting her message me? wait she action first? junhoe.... what you want? i also don't know, said junhoe! ^^ was it the letter wrote, hope we wont meet each other, that means we really wont meet each other? unless she contact me? i had "qian jiu" the respond she gave me on 36th day ago!.. am i regret what i wrote? addition, finally i saw her online, 1st time i felt not happy... because she also not happy.. something happened to her again.. i wanted to know what happened again... i wanted to protect her.. give her concern but ... how? pighead, always remember my 6 words! don't try to hurt your self like last time you hurt your hand with knife. please don't! everything can be settled!

The 35th day without her

before i went to college, i went to ah teo's house passed the first aid box to them.. tonight was the final for the competition. then i rushed to follow my friend car to college.. wow.. i looked cool, wise! ^^ a new brand look of me..! i liked this king of wearing-half formal dressed. this time presentation, i still felt that it was not quite good.. i seems like ... uhm.. can't improve... after that we went to 1U for our lunch... geok lan and her friends also went there.. actually i mentioned that i wanted to meet them unfortunately my friend don't want. evening, me, sa poh and monkey are going a korean festival... then joined with g.lan and her friends and my ex classmate.. the result was the place just played with some music on the stage.. every one felt disappointed. sa poh felt guilty conscience to every one because always make mistake.. but for me is fine. then we planed to go pavilion. we had our dinner at s.wang's "kim garry".. then i fetch back every one and monkey went back by his own... 1st time i saw malaysia damn jam at midnight! so fed up! then me and sa poh went for drink.. was she happy recently? i don't think so... force people to accept something that people don't wish to accept, what will happened to that person? happy? sad? or no feel? during ah teo's house, some of them gave her a surprise which is delivery a cake.. i also surprise.. because g.lan told me that whether am i joining to give her surprise on tuesday night-go her house. in conclusion is? if really planned coming tuesday then how come today give her surprise? i knew that she was not happy for this surprise, everyone don't know her feeling... for me, i knew! by the way, me, sa poh and chow hong will celebrate together on a day, hope that she and we also have a happy day! i can feel that her coming birthday won't have a happily memory . in contrary,it bring sadness to both.. those who support the guy, they didn't really consider much on the result that will be happen.. they think that they are so proud to supporting the guy. please... think the result before action.. i didn't mean support friend is wrong.. but have to consider others feeling... well, i fully support her, sa poh.. don't worry... i will be there to cheer you up! ^^ 3 days didn't saw piGheaD online.. because my brother used the computer! i am super extremely tired, drove 2hours car from pavilion... is hard to imagine the painful of suffer! night ! - sa poh and pigheaD!

The 34th day without her

yeah! no class for today.. but................. next week have to pass up 2 assignment, after taken my breakfast, i went to k.how's house to complete our fitting project.. we spent 8 hours on that assignment, now we left the part of explanation. at night time, i had a duty at 'nan yi' school with geok lan, a basketball competition duty. wow! a cool experience.. an old uncle about 55++ sudden felt down... that moment, i admitted a panic... don't know what is the exact way to help on... lucky at last everything was fine.. another case was a young guy "chou jing", this was the normal incident will happen.. therefore i am not scare at all... finished duty, we went to find sui cheng for drink at MC... we chatted a lot.... crapped a lot too... ^^ i was extremely tired! tomorrow i still have to go college for my english presentation.. not much prepare.. just a quick view... die! don't how is she going on recently.. can't see whether she online or not...

The 33th day without her

this morning during class, suddenly i think of her, guessing the serious incident that happened to her... is it related to that guy? because i heard some one said that about that guy... she don't want to tell me because is related to that guy? or what!? i wanted to know!! from her. my IBS subject just watched a damn bored show that related to brand of shoes. my another assignment still haven't work more on it... just always that to play... funning around... =( when will seriously start our project? our assignment won't ended until we finish our studies.. huh... tonight, i had a meeting with scout's trainer, sometimes i think that am i suit to be a trainer? am i qualified to be a trainer? i also don't.. one of our trainer said that out area that moved a new archery shop... then me and jia jun went to play... wow... it had been 3 years i didn't play.. i get 67marks over 120.. ^^ quite expansive to play... i seldom online because of my brother! arr!!! do i need a laptop? hope so if got... ^^

The 32th day without her

oh my godness, yesterday, i talked with her again for more than one and half hour.. so tired this morning.. somemore i didn't do my english article.. the only way was do it on the way came to college.. Mr woon always worried about our englsih language.. some times i felt sorry to him... i knew he is a good teacher even he seems kind of gay.. ^^ ya, its true..! serious..!! he likes male than female.. therefore he treated guys better.. tomorrow have to pass up a part of assignment.. i still haven't do it... just read through it by yesterday.. tonight have to rush it.. now, i am at college's library, waiting for friends finding books.. yesterday, i gave sa poh one of my blog address but it was not this latest blogs, it was my old one which is friendster. she seems like very happy... ^^ sorry.. i cheated you but it was also a blog.. well, i have to stop here.. good luck my dear piG!

The 31th day without her

the first month that we didn't conact to each other. miss her... wow.. yesterday, sa poh started contact me.. contact to a stranger.. ^^ we had on the phone for more than an hour.. we talked a lots.. but mostly she talk the most.. always like that.. she facing a love stuff problem.. hope she will handle it well.. at college, our new asignment come again.. =( wish our group members will done it togehter well... back home, i was damn tired.. i chatted a while on messenger with sa poh again.. ^^ she changed her messenger title.. so funny her.. since so long didn't chat with her, i felt she is a bit of different.. hard to explain. well, i saw pigheaD too.. even she always having exams, she seems like very happy waiting the day coming... at night, i am just sitted in front of the computer for doing research and reading.. so dizzy of reading it.. my eyes... so blur.. so dry.. and so tired..

The 30th day without her

rainy day, because of my technical english class had postpone to this Saturday and there was only one class on today which is auto cab therefore I was truant to college. early morning, I sent my car to repair at my brother’s friend shop, when I reached, and his friend checked, our spare parts not enough so at last gone home with nothing. whole day, I just did a bit of my auto cab project then did some research on my design theory(3rd assignment). this noon, I accompanied my mother to fetch my sister to her piano lesson then we went to giant for shop. for my porpose, I needed a pair of formal shoe therefore I bought a new cheap formal shoe.. ^^ hope coming presentation, I can do it well! today was the 1st day for those form 3 student taking their pmR, in here, wish them good luck! included pigheaD’s sister! just now, mun mun chatted with me, she helped me asked the latest condition from her, so happy!! mun mun wanted me chat with her but I refused it, she don’t know what was happened between us. I asked her to ask 1. how is she? 2. busy with assignment? 3. miss me or not.. ^^ recently she having exam everyday, so hope she good luck! when mun mun asked miss me or not, she said “don’t know o”. by the way, I am happy to know than I don’t know. she is coming back soon. don’t who will be fetch her back.. hope.... hope..... . . . well, I heard that tomorrow she having exam, good luck ya! I will be there to support you!