hi...

i had been long time didn't update this blog.. while i think of what i did last time.. i fell want to cry.. is it hurt or happy or stupid or innocent? i wish to know but i don't know. I'm had ended my semester for a week, feel bored! i wondering why human are so complicated and weird, when stress come, tons of assignment, human wants to end it faster and have nice holiday but when ended everything.. having holiday, human feels bored.. kind of weird.. last week, i think is last Friday 28 of November, this was my bad day.. a guilty day in my life.. why say so? not because i kill someone... don't misunderstand.. just i did something really wrong and hard to forgive myself. my good image towards "someone" had been disappointed. my profile had destroy just a lie... that day i was really hurt and sad... i wanted to cry it out but i cant. life is complicated, it must meet up some difficulty then it only become more appreciable, came up with a interesting memory or history in our life. @. @

Surprising that i appear here?? ^^

i was sick for 2 days... and i was fed up with my group mate since they are farking brainless, think with their pussy brain!!! damn them!!.. really no brain.. back to good thing.. thanks kee for today... i was absent for class because i having ill.. therefore my little kee came to look after me after her class... today the weather wasn't so good.. it rain quite heavy.. and i don't have car to pick up her.. the only way is wait the rain become less.. then she walked to my house... i was quite touch of her.. bringing a heavy beg... and hand beg with many files... get wet a few part.. >'' quite sad... ~.~ but thanks her to do such a big sacrifice... thanks...
good night!! ^^

我的心总是不舒服！

期待中的失望是如何的感觉呢？
虽然已成为了麻木感觉，
但我还是很不开心！！
今天她放我飞机，
不过她有陪我一下下，
我已足够开心因为至少有陪啊!!
她答应明天,陪她时,她又说不能！
那时我已不开心，话说少了，
她感觉不到。。（我觉得)
过后,我还是说会话..
回到家,我就信息她,
-说我已到了.. .. ..
我就躺在床上想（不开心），
我很累了，便睡下下，
起来时，望电话有没有她回我的信息，
没有！！！
总而言之就不开心！！
星期一我要开工了，
所以，已定了今天，明天，后天，
她陪我。。
结果？？
我的心还是怪怪.. 有东西围着它..
现在的我，好像要病了。。。
身体热热的哦。。
对不起，我不想的。。 控制不来。。

holiday!!

yeah.. i am holidaying... i am enjoying my life recently... coming june i will going to work... so, i don't have much time left to enjoy... these is a person whom i always worry about her.. she is kee.. she is quite a pretty girl.. which is always give me supports.. cares.. i was very lucky.. thanks a lot.. i watched narnia yesterday night at pavilion with gang of scout mates... this is our first time gathered.. we was chit chattering crazy... the topic which is prostitute or porns.. ~.~ then we went 1st station for our second round.. tired....

what if happiness and sadness mixed together??

recently i was start my new life.. i enjoy it very much.. happy memory wont last easily in my mind.. i hope, i wont make my wrong decision.. i trust myself again... time will prove to me, you, and everyone... meanwhile.. inside the happiness, there is sadness.. ones happiness come, sacrifice comes.. what if both mixed and come together? starting a new life equals sacrifice another life.. hope this life end longer as you can!! god will always bless you.. as well as me..
i don't know what the hell i am writing... screw!!!

The 206 - 212th day without her

my 3rd idea... what he said... guess ...?? he said - if you like it your design, go ahead... then think of your spaces... i was not quite happy with it... tuesday night, i was spending more than 6 hours for my scale drawing and spaces model.. and when i shown to him. 1st - ask me where is your scale ruler... then he "screw" me... 2nd - my scale all wrong!! out of scale!! 3rd - ask me learn about scale.. i was extremely "fire" .... but he some times he will walk to me, like "an wei" me... touch on my shoulder.. then i feel more calm down..
friend's birthday gathering.. =.= (skip) ... assignment...... tuesday, angel called me to fetch her to somewhere else get something.. that day i was late.. so, late to fetch her.. after that fetch her to tuition... she is cute with glasses... ^^ i said - if want me fetch, 1st, you should be my girl friend.. she said "o"... =.=`` lame... craps... lolz... when fooling her, she was very cute.. but she was cool, she will provide a style of herself... comes to kee... recently i was quite close with her... chatted every day... a nice girl..
tired.. to be continue

The 199 - 205th day without her

this week is the most stress among my 3rd semester.. especially design studio... by mr fabian.. he is a good lecturer but i think is over good... maybe he target was set high toward his student.. and the last project, i was one of his student... pity? or good for us? he banned my idea twice..!! my character of my project is a dancer - jolin. for my 1st idea, mostly form was square - he said, do you think jolin likes this house (design). well, 1st time i was ok with it.. so i changed... 2nd idea, was some sort of ballet dancer (movement). he said - it was not enough graceful.. lines of the dancer movement.. banned again. i was very angry.. i don't know i was angry myself or angry him.. may be both.. angry myself - didn't put 100% affect on my works.. angry him - over smart with himself.. ^^ well... i also busy with my services part of my electricity.. seems like lack of time done in time before due date.. haiz... blame of my lazy-ness... actually, i did half way earlier... cause of lazy... i was busy with scout stuff also... what is my time management... where??? "gg"... saturday night, i went to seremban chung hwa for campfire.. it wasn't fun because of raining... =( next day morning, scout activity... ipoh scout came to our school for teaching us new stuff... tired but no time to relax.. where is my ideas?????? kayli just back from hong kong.. quite surprised me when i miss call her, and she call back me.. she just back from hongkong.. wow.. i also wanted to go.. maybe... will go on may.. recently, i knew a girl.. called shye kee.. mm.. she quite a innocent girl also.. always felt not enough sleep.. =) hopefully to know more about her..