junhoE's storY

hi...

2008-12-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

i had been long time didn't update this blog.. while i think of what i did last time.. i fell want to cry.. is it hurt or happy or stupid or innocent? i wish to know but i don't know. I'm had ended my semester for a week, feel bored! i wondering why human are so complicated and weird, when stress come, tons of assignment, human wants to end it faster and have nice holiday but when ended everything.. having holiday, human feels bored.. kind of weird.. last week, i think is last Friday 28 of November, this was my bad day.. a guilty day in my life.. why say so? not because i kill someone... don't misunderstand.. just i did something really wrong and hard to forgive myself. my good image towards "someone" had been disappointed. my profile had destroy just a lie... that day i was really hurt and sad... i wanted to cry it out but i cant. life is complicated, it must meet up some difficulty then it only become more appreciable, came up with a interesting memory or history in our life. @. @

Surprising that i appear here?? ^^

2008-08-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

i was sick for 2 days... and i was fed up with my group mate since they are farking brainless, think with their pussy brain!!! damn them!!.. really no brain.. back to good thing.. thanks kee for today... i was absent for class because i having ill.. therefore my little kee came to look after me after her class... today the weather wasn't so good.. it rain quite heavy.. and i don't have car to pick up her.. the only way is wait the rain become less.. then she walked to my house... i was quite touch of her.. bringing a heavy beg... and hand beg with many files... get wet a few part.. >'' quite sad... ~.~ but thanks her to do such a big sacrifice... thanks...
good night!! ^^

我的心总是不舒服！

2008-05-30T21:21:00.003+08:00

期待中的失望是如何的感觉呢？
虽然已成为了麻木感觉，
但我还是很不开心！！
今天她放我飞机，
不过她有陪我一下下，
我已足够开心因为至少有陪啊!!
她答应明天,陪她时,她又说不能！
那时我已不开心，话说少了，
她感觉不到。。（我觉得)
过后,我还是说会话..
回到家,我就信息她,
-说我已到了.. .. ..
我就躺在床上想（不开心），
我很累了，便睡下下，
起来时，望电话有没有她回我的信息，
没有！！！
总而言之就不开心！！
星期一我要开工了，
所以，已定了今天，明天，后天，
她陪我。。
结果？？
我的心还是怪怪.. 有东西围着它..
现在的我，好像要病了。。。
身体热热的哦。。
对不起，我不想的。。控制不来。。

holiday!!

2008-05-17T11:06:00.002+08:00

yeah.. i am holidaying... i am enjoying my life recently... coming june i will going to work... so, i don't have much time left to enjoy... these is a person whom i always worry about her.. she is kee.. she is quite a pretty girl.. which is always give me supports.. cares.. i was very lucky.. thanks a lot.. i watched narnia yesterday night at pavilion with gang of scout mates... this is our first time gathered.. we was chit chattering crazy... the topic which is prostitute or porns.. ~.~ then we went 1st station for our second round.. tired....

what if happiness and sadness mixed together??

2008-04-24T12:38:00.002+08:00

recently i was start my new life.. i enjoy it very much.. happy memory wont last easily in my mind.. i hope, i wont make my wrong decision.. i trust myself again... time will prove to me, you, and everyone... meanwhile.. inside the happiness, there is sadness.. ones happiness come, sacrifice comes.. what if both mixed and come together? starting a new life equals sacrifice another life.. hope this life end longer as you can!! god will always bless you.. as well as me..
i don't know what the hell i am writing... screw!!!

The 206 - 212th day without her

2008-03-28T00:18:00.003+08:00

my 3rd idea... what he said... guess ...?? he said - if you like it your design, go ahead... then think of your spaces... i was not quite happy with it... tuesday night, i was spending more than 6 hours for my scale drawing and spaces model.. and when i shown to him. 1st - ask me where is your scale ruler... then he "screw" me... 2nd - my scale all wrong!! out of scale!! 3rd - ask me learn about scale.. i was extremely "fire" .... but he some times he will walk to me, like "an wei" me... touch on my shoulder.. then i feel more calm down..
friend's birthday gathering.. =.= (skip) ... assignment...... tuesday, angel called me to fetch her to somewhere else get something.. that day i was late.. so, late to fetch her.. after that fetch her to tuition... she is cute with glasses... ^^ i said - if want me fetch, 1st, you should be my girl friend.. she said "o"... =.=`` lame... craps... lolz... when fooling her, she was very cute.. but she was cool, she will provide a style of herself... comes to kee... recently i was quite close with her... chatted every day... a nice girl..
tired.. to be continue

The 199 - 205th day without her

2008-03-27T23:49:00.003+08:00

this week is the most stress among my 3rd semester.. especially design studio... by mr fabian.. he is a good lecturer but i think is over good... maybe he target was set high toward his student.. and the last project, i was one of his student... pity? or good for us? he banned my idea twice..!! my character of my project is a dancer - jolin. for my 1st idea, mostly form was square - he said, do you think jolin likes this house (design). well, 1st time i was ok with it.. so i changed... 2nd idea, was some sort of ballet dancer (movement). he said - it was not enough graceful.. lines of the dancer movement.. banned again. i was very angry.. i don't know i was angry myself or angry him.. may be both.. angry myself - didn't put 100% affect on my works.. angry him - over smart with himself.. ^^ well... i also busy with my services part of my electricity.. seems like lack of time done in time before due date.. haiz... blame of my lazy-ness... actually, i did half way earlier... cause of lazy... i was busy with scout stuff also... what is my time management... where??? "gg"... saturday night, i went to seremban chung hwa for campfire.. it wasn't fun because of raining... =( next day morning, scout activity... ipoh scout came to our school for teaching us new stuff... tired but no time to relax.. where is my ideas?????? kayli just back from hong kong.. quite surprised me when i miss call her, and she call back me.. she just back from hongkong.. wow.. i also wanted to go.. maybe... will go on may.. recently, i knew a girl.. called shye kee.. mm.. she quite a innocent girl also.. always felt not enough sleep.. =) hopefully to know more about her..

The 192th - 198th day without her

2008-03-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

the more busy, the more stress... why? because of my studio...... and the lecturer.... MR FABIEN!! he was a special guy!! the legend... stop about him.. well... he was the lecturer who gave me such a pressure... sucks me during individual discussion... the heat in my body raising up from 0 - 100c.
the coming discussion, i get better feed back... did i do a good research? mm... maybe, maybe not... i was busy with various thing!! scout(junior), scout gathering, studio, assignment... time management is suck........ i went to a PAM lecturer series talk about sustainable building by a french.. damn bored!! no point!! wasted time and money.. ... . . . met edward, also a lecturer.. asked me weather interested work as part time as model making in his working company.. well... i guess so... hopefully.. then we rush to another talk by an artist... .... for me, bored.. because i am not damn good in listening and talking skill (english).. hauyee n yc also went for the talk... "kiasu" people... huhhh.... thrusday, today sy plan canceled... i dated angel for lunch, but at last she reject because wanted to join her friend then we went eat "ice" at air panas... this was pretty bad... she was not eating but watching me... cool and silence... i wanted to get into her world.. but i failed... sorry.... after that i went to cut my hair.. then following by suyiN.. chatting around at kfc... she pretty pity of scold by her mum... cheer up girl!! =) tired now!! tomorrow start training camp 3 days 3 nights... =( monday- model...!! shit!!

The 185th - 191th day without her

2008-03-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

busy like hell.... even didn't sleep for whole damn night with my good friend, joseph... because of my outdated computer... my 3D max software can't support the graphic when i do further.. shit! bullshit!! therefore i have no choice.... due date is tomorrow... what can i do? lucky the digital lab was booked by some seniors... pieeew... some more there is a exam for building services... 20% of the overall marks...!! damn my asssssssss... that whole night, whole day was crazy... read equals to didn't read... what the "screw" man!!!! my friend, joseph prepared some "cha siew bao" for us as supper... thanks... at last i done mine part, comes him also... then exam... when sitting in the annex, the exam hall, first, it was cold... second, i was tired, third, i felt that i wanted to sleep besides exam... this time might be "GG", which mean DIE!! if i get 10 out of 20, that was super extremely lucky!!! for my previous test, i get 12 over 20... that was consider lucky also... because, i knew i had many wrong answer... so why still get more than half... perhaps, i better than those who study more hard... thanks god and my lucks... after exam, we went to one utama shopping complex for movie, 10000bc... this movie was quite nice... it is my style.. i like some soft of old war style movie... i hate those who give comment as this movie was really sucks!!! hey, please... if this is not your type of movie, just say not my type... don't say sucks.....!!! even is, please low down your voice, talk between your friend and not to whole "village"!!!

The 178th - 184th day without you

2008-02-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

Finally, i knew the truth... pighead has boy friend already.. when that moment i asked her.. my heart really broke down.. but i am happy to know the truth, at least i know she has boy friend already.. the next day, my mood turned back to normal.. that night, i called ling.. we chatted quite long.. even i felt weird, may be we didn't chat for about more than one month.. i expected to update more.. but she has more sad stuff... ~.~ wuwu... recently i was busying with my studio work.. the day before submittion date, i was rushing and rushing my tracing work... sucks!! because many curve... i slept around 5a.m and wake up around 8a.m... =..= thrusday, me, t.t and ling went the garden to watch movie... wow.. it's high class!! all couple seats.. for student price is 15Rm!!! but if with belover, its worth.. vantage point is the movie we watch.. its quite special... but . . . bored a bit of the special.. friday - sunday, i went to kuala selangor for site visit as study.. cool at first.. damn bad at middle and end.. 1 first experience sucks camping... wuwu..~.~ came back that day, i was hungry.. therefore i called someone accompany me and she is "teh siao ying"!! ^^ x

The 171th - 177th day without her

2008-02-23T23:40:00.003+08:00

my friend lost his wallet.. pity.... recently just busying with my studies.. 3D max, studio, building services, building construction... all sucks... coming friday, there is a small exam for building construction... wuwu~.~ wednesday, we went to chwen new house overnight after study.. we went to play basketball... wow.. damn "geng"... we just cheap ass... so tired.... friday night, after scout meeting, i went to drink with leemun at uma rami at jalan ipoh there.. we chatted a lot of our stuff.. "ahiz''''''

The 164th - 170th day without you

2008-02-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

started my college life.. busy? yup.. i was busy.. starting with my design then model stuff... wuwu~.~..... tired of it... valentine... i bought a present for suyin... actually, i wanted to make a nice box for her to put the cute stuff inside.. due to some one who make me angry... therefore according to my mood i didn't make it... i wished piGhead but she didn't reply... i tried to use my sister cellphone to miss call her, she did reply that " who are you"... i was depress... that is what she want to treat me? well.. i saw her new uploaded pictures.. i saw she wear the necklace that i called her sister pass to her.. suitable for her style.. sweet sweet.. back to suyin.. how i pass to her? this problem made me felt sucks!! the night before valentine day, i asked some one to pass to her.. because of my friend don't like her.. at last she refuse to help me... i damn angry at that time.. lastly, i passed a small present to frankie to pass it to piggy.. that time when i was driving, i quite emotional without dangerous.. then i find mei to help me... thanks!!valentine day, i finished class damn earlier today.. suyin sent a thanks message to me... then i use this opportunity to ask her out.. i thought she is free but. . . then i just accompany my friend chun yee to watch jumper at sunway... good movie... when i back home, surfing the net.. a sudden call by suyin.. requesting help from me... at last i fetch her back.. friday, friends asked me whether want to out or not. i rejected them.. first reason- i was busying with my site visit at one utama there. second reason- i don't want to see them.. don't like their "style"... seems like not my cup of tea.. but .. ~.~ third reason- during that period, i don't want to have any relation with some one.. which is one of the best method to avoid... satuday, they asked me out again.. this time i changed my mind and go with them to visit houses.. i was quite disappointed that . . . at night, my relative having a steambut behind my house.. that night i drunk quite much... golden label..one of the first class whiskey(gold, blue, green, black, red).. and red wine.. blur blur...

The 157th - 163th day without you

2008-02-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

This is the first time that i felt chinese new years was sucks!!! In my previous chinese new year, i will celebrate with many relative .. gamble at the first day of chinese new year.. but this year, some get married.. some went to others place.. at last, there is only left few... during the period, i dated quite lots of friend.. among 3days, i date more than 10 times!! some i even called three times.. shit! bull shit! recently i knew a new friend, chloe, i messaged her quite often, but always just chat a while.. piGhead came back for her Chinese NEw year on wednesday night, i offered to fetch her but she refused.. well... is normal for me since "A" years.. her hometown is at ipoh... and my friend chloe also at ipoh... that was so coincidence... before chinese new year, i find angel for lunch... she is quite pretty.. same as her sister.. but have the same weird attitude.. actually the main purpose that i find her is because i wanted to pass something to her and her sister(valentine present, a necklace) .. we went "kang cheng" for lunch. just near by my house.. before chinese new year that night, i went club with my cousin.. BAR CLUB.. expansive and no chick at all.. just only few.. this was the first time i talked with the two chick... quite ok... invited them to join us drink... because we cant finish.. just drink half bottle... but at last they refused me because they want leave... when we leave, they still hanging there with others bastrad!! this is a good experience for me..

The 150th - 156th day without her

2008-01-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

chinese new year coming soon... seems like don't have new year feel. me and piggy planned to go island for play but until now, we still haven't select confirm place and time, she said 1st,2nd and 3rd february she can't... make it 4,5,6th february.. but.... T.T i still don't know yet.. even my parents.. may be they won't allowed me... new project come today.. which is proto-type, designing furniture, understanding anthropometric.. i feel the stress of studio 1.. at first, i knew studio 1 is hard.. but when i get into it.. i felt like quite easy.. now, i change my view, stresses were nearer and nearer..

151th- piggy came back to KL.. yesterday night, i called her ask whether need i fetch or not because, no one fetching her... wanted to fetch her at kl sentral but.. she said she will go back to seri kembangan there.. so she go back herself.. felt sad that can't fetch her...

152th- me, frankie went to dinner with piggy.. she looks same.. didn't change much... still the pig face.. pig body.. ^^ i decided to go pizza but at last change to 1st station near my house.. chatting around until 10p.m.. i didn't eat anything because my stomach not feeling well... felt want vomit... then we went to pool... about 12 i leaved.. but frankie still there with his friends.. before go back home, i drive along my area to show her the changes... she came my house over night.. she was the first girl that came to my house sleep... that night, we chatted until 4a.m... wake up at 6a.m... because i have class in morning.. what i listened about her stuff, i felt she still the same piggy that i knew last time... hope she chosen the right decision and no regrets.. about my stuff.. i haven't share with her...

153th- super tired...2 hours sleeping.. going to sick soon.. after breakfast with piggy in my college, around 10, i bring her to KTM station for her to meet up her friend.. she will be going melaka.. about the trip with her had canceled.. besides sad.. hard to express my feelings.. well.. i believe our promise will succeed one day.. yesterday li jing birthday, tonight, they celebrating for her.. actually, i don't want to attend but at last i just attend without having dinner.. i bought her a small present.. a sushi key chain.. hope she will like it.. overall of the celebration is sucks!! can you imagine that, 7.30p.m gather, around 10p.m, all only appear.. and before others appear, they just sitting and "ong gui gui" chat.. capture pictures.. "wahsai"... basically, this can't blame anyone.. if want blame, blame all of us.. ^^ fair enough!! Pighead is coming back next tuesday night.. i offered myself to fetch her but her mum is fetching her.. i asked mind to meet up but she said she is going back hometown at ipoh..angel, her sister told me.. angel has been long time didn't online.. even she changed her attitude, when back to messenger chat, she became cool... ~.~'' recently piG just busying with her studies... practices.. and sleep.. looking forward to meet her... when can we meet again??

155th- we went to my father's site to do our building services... quite surprising us... we went to the site office's meeting room.. few of my father's colleague gave us explanation to what we needed to learn or know.. they printed damn lot of notes.. "wahsai"...

156th- leemun's birthday.. she invited me to have steamboat near my house.. i promised her that i will attend... and after that will go for pool.. stupid man!! i sicked.. if go for pool, the inner will full of smoky.!! at last i did went there, actually i said that will teach her but. . . leemun introduce me a girl.. which called chloe or "ah ying".. same age, working, stay at pandan indah.. she's quite pretty... but leemun said she's quite a bit "meaty".. =)

The 143th - 149th day without her

2008-01-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

shit man!! the assignment is extended the date until this coming thrusday.. good or bad? if we haven't finish our project, is good where as if we done our project, is bad!! by the way, we try our best to make it better.. wednesday is public holiday wish to go out but at last, stay at home.. wuwu~.~ tuesday night, me, kwee how, chun yee and levis went to HIDE for drink.. near "maharaleja". fooling around.. even we are tired.. that was a good open air environment.. thrusday, i felt oneself inferior because, those who failed in their experience, they made their model more better... i admire they have this kind of failure consciousness.. why i don't have?? after college, we went to midvalley... i bought 3 gift which is for suet yew's birthday present, suyin's valentine present, and piggy's birthday present in march.. may be some one will ask how about piGhead? i don't know how to answer them.. i also don't.. i give up her? or ?? whatever reason.. what i can do is just keep silent.. friday i went to school again.. main purpose is pass suet yew's present to her.. hope she like it.. then i met suyin.. she asked me whether can fetch her back after school.. at last i promised her.. we went to pizza for lunch.. treat her as a good luck meal because she is going to on behalf state to join a competition dance.. this year, she facing spm examination and many stuff to do. As what i say is, do what ever you wanted to do.. chances are not always give.. some more this is the second chance.. appreciate it.!! i will do my best to help you.. fetch you to bukit jalil if i am allowed.. i have an question for myself, why do i do these things to her? i also don't to answer.. maybe she was one of the girl i loved before.. as i mention in my blog before... as long as i happy, you happy then it's ok.... another question, will i chase her again? may be but i know, she won't accept me... another question, how about piGhead? i don't know again.. in life, we can't answer all the answer as we want(in my view). recently i watched a taiwan drama.. quite funny and touching drama.. i learnt few things in this drama.. pigheaD, i knew that i didn't miss you as much as last time but, i hope you won't appear in my mind.. you know what is the feel when a guy waiting for a empty hope? i am one of them waiting.. stupiG me!! but i like!! stupiG again!!

The 136th - 142th day without her

2008-01-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

this week i have fetched su yin few times.. feel like ... started feel the stresses are coming toward me... porject 1 of my studio 1, egg apparatus, this coming wednesday will be going to test out of project... we divided into 3 big group, my partner, kwee how, we are so lucky.. ours is successful! cool man!!! really seems like 10 out of 9 failed.. i really happy with my project that i did but i felt sad also.. why? because, some of them did more better than us... is challenging me, what to do? i hope coming project i will do all my best! next project- proto-type, designing a furniture. 140th- i went to my secondary school today, because today is "zhao shen". i met up with many girls that i knew.. met up angel and suet yew.. quite happy.. angel, seems like change her attitude, friendly, happy, pretty.. suet yew, talkative, innocent, pretty too... i saw suyin also.. she gave me a big reaction which is seems like i cant be there.. i felt like she is avoiding from me.. may be i just sensitive.. jian shern and jun how there also... we checked our SPM original cert but the officer said haven't available.. wuwu~.~ i went off about 2 something to fetch my sister.. i am so hungry, wanted to call some one for lunch with me.. i called- angel and suyin, but non free, angel-haven't go back home, suyin having kfc with friends.. at last, i called whye chung.. so surprising him.. we called jing may also, she was slept.. then after lunch, we went drink with yankher, another surprise which is yankher bring along his girl friend.. unexpected. next day, i called few buddy for drink.. frank, khailiang and that 2 guy.. sometimes, friends chatting around is more better than stay at home.. can share whatever we know.. recently, i chatted with a friend called coco, she was from my ex primary school, we met up before since i was in secondary school.. wanted to date her but she made appointment with her sister to buy new cloths... when are you free friend?? pighead seems like not happy recently.. i just felt it.. hope not happen to her.. tomorrow scout... yeah!!

The 129th - 135th day without her

2008-01-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

first day of my third semester... same as previous semester.. time table is quite mess and crush.. i hope i can set up five subject this semester!!! please!! after class, we went to cyber cafe for battle "dota", we won two match!! yeah!! i saw piggy through messenger.. she is coming back on

129th.. may be will go redang with her... three days three nights... yeah!! i miss the moment we get together.. go to beach is own promised to each other! if can go with piGhead, more good!!! i checked from the net, it only start from end of February. sad man!!

130th- yesterday, piggy called me from Macau.. the line was not clear so we didn't chat much.. i called her back at night but no one pick up.. i think she was slept... well, today is an idiot day!!? i think.. hmm... just stupid!! why? great day for my 2008 year.. i only have a class on 10a.m... finished at 10 something.. today, kayli supposed to date me, qiu phing and ah shan for dinner at One Utama.. at last we changed to time square, Gas online.. in short, what i did whole is- stay at college play pool with friends until 1p.m. ; went for movie (The House) alone (friends changed to sing) ; walked whole time square for each level same as sungai wang ; followed pretty girl, sit at the bowling center for one and half hour... damn!! total seven hours!! oh my god... but.. at least... can met up with them.. quite happy with them..

131th- recently, i was damn bastard!! thinking nonsense... keep on thinking.. shit man.. today, i accompany munhoe to cut his hair.. he can be such a good friend but he also can be such a bad friend.. is depend how you view a person.. recently, i used to not mix up with those buddy that i always mix.. i wanted to avoid some friend.. needed to mix with others friend.. can i? suyin called me to fetch her back today as well as munhoe.. he have class at 6.30p.m... i quite care or concern about her always.. she is a good girl sometimes.. i can felt that i am quite happy during we met up or whatever stuff... i hope she will take care herself properly, i will always there to support you!! pigHEad as well!! who ever i love or like before..

133th-wuwu~.~ wanted to stay at house save money... but... munhoe called me... oh..... went to watch movie-national treasure at pavilion. he wanted to watch i am legend, i refuse him... finished, we went to shop at sungai wang... we both bought a glasses... yeah!! recently, i spent a lot... oh my god... my mother's birthday coming soon... wuwu~.~

134th- all my fault... !!! all my wrong... !!! come on scold me..!! dad, if you don't like me, why don't you send me away??? i won't mind... i knew i speak to mum with high voice but... not only me... three of us also.. i am the most less talk so loud.. well... even i get scold with innocent, i do apologize.. please forgive me.. i love you all.. piGhead, i love you as well.. but . . .

135th-scout, i was not satisfy with the cooking activity towards them.. but, i hope i can improve it.. i went back home quite late about 6p.m, we did a stupid thing which is cook rice then mixed with source and a egg.. super crazy.. quite nice.. tired.. pighead didn't give me respond... =( what is she doing?? sleeping? never mind.. tomorrow start a new day... everything will be fine.. hope piggy good luck in her last exam tomorrow! miss you and you!!

The 122th - 128th day without her

2008-01-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

122th-these few days, it happened various of things.. i seriously tired of it.. everything.. morning, i didn't sleep well. i vomit this morning after having supper with sl, sy and cw. i started damn don't like cw this guy.. lucky not only me don't, others as well.. then i massaged pighead and tell her.. she called me.... i was happy until don't how to describe.. even i know she still have feel toward that guy, "giraffe". she went to countdown with him - sungai wang and the curve... quite jealous!! yesterday (126th) i bang on a BMW's butt... it was not serious... just a bit of crush.. because i keep it too near between two car... while i admitted i was fooling and reading message that yuanteng send to me.. i learnt from that mistake... that time i felt hate of driving car... but i hope wont happened any accident from now on...!!

126th morning, i went to tar college for study.. ^^ my purpose is for looking girls.. quite fun... after that went to lunch with sapoh then accident.. therefore just went my sister school near by for lunch... then pick up my sister and her friends.. this time, i did inform piGheaD.. she did reply me.. i quite happy with it... thanks you.. besides piggy, every one i like before, also care me a lots.. thanks.. i learnt from it!! then i repaired the number plat on my car.. and had drink with sapoh at our old place.. this time i angry again... totally three times i angry her.. but when chat to her.. my angriness will gone off..

127th- i went out with sapoh to celebrate micheal birthday at midvalley. at first, situation is quite silent.. later on, just normal... very tired... i had my cool style again... sorry.. i mean not in the big group... while going and going back.. i am very sad and tired.. why i sad? i think no need ask.. i also hate myself.. how can like that... no one understand me... no one knows when am i sad or happy.. but i miss you a lot...!

128th- scouting.. i like it so much.. i felt that i can more communicate with them.. hope they can learn skills that i taught to upgrade them self in scouting..! after finished, i went to lunch with kh and joey.. then i went to find suyin to get back her barbecue things at friend's house.. and get the hong kong drama from sy that my stupid sister wants.. then we went to seven eleven.. she wanted to buy milk... and then.. cool ... bought 2 heineken.. wow! quite expensive.. lucky she treat me.. actually, i wanted to pay her.. but.. ^^ i won't too bad.. next time i will repaid her a mickey bear.. yeah! i saw at the gardens... we two drink inside the car near her house's garden.. because my mum want use car.. so after finished i fetch her back.. i saw her mother.. quite a good chatter with me.. =) good image for her mother.. ^^ actually just pretending.. yeah! tomorrow going to start my semester three... very excited to look forward.. tough? fun? but i must be serious on it! a new day, a new hope.. as well piGhead!!

The 121th day without her

2007-12-31T17:09:00.000+08:00

wow... is it this is my last page, last day, last story of "The days without her"? i don't know... she said quite directly... but is it she don't want me suffer too much for her? don't want me wasted time and money on her or really not interested on me? actually, i have to call her this noon, tell her what happened that night(accident) and wanted to ask her something- is it i don't have any chance.. well, i think is rubbish question.. bullshit question.. and the point is, i didn't call her. today, my horoscope says that "Try not to worry too much about that big decision you're facing -- though it will be tough, if you can hold off on rushing into something, you should be pretty pleased with the eventual outcome." suyin is quite a nice girl sometimes.. yesterday night, i chatted with her until 0330 a.m.. quite happy after chat with her, even my tears are gathered in my eyEs... my heart felt like something digging on it... ya, actually, piG did went to ONE UTAMA with her sister and sister's friends.. sorry, i can't fulfill your dream by me.. actually, i not really want to go having steak with them.. but munhoe is going.. i tried to date piG, but she refused me... she is kind of extremely weird, complicated, perfect girl... ^^ i hope tonight, i can find her... like last time.. hope she call me... i waiting your call... give me an empty hope, better than none.. i love you!! i will try to control myself to think too much on you... next year, 2008, i will focusing and increasing my skill on my studies.. besides outstanding student, i want to be good of the good student!!! i hope, you will take care yourself carefully, properly, don't hurt your own self, own body.. defend your self!! i will always there waiting your call for help.. happy new year in advance!!

The 120th day without her

2007-12-30T20:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday night... wuwu~.~ after house warming, i wanted to call piG out for giving her the necklace but she refuse, reason of quite busy.. then i asked others two friend but same.. that time, i don't want back home so early.. want find some one chat.. at last i called k.hoe they all... we went sentul there have drink...quite nice and warm environment... yankher told me about some bad things during the christmas countdown.. said bad things of her... but what can i do? pretending oh ya.. smile... when go back.. i almost get involve in accident, the road at chong hwa gombak there... i speed... drive with emotion... suddenly a my V car came out... lucky the opposite road don't have car... thanks god.. i don't want lost her... scouting in the morning until afternoon.. many problems have to settle for those members... wuwu~.~ tomorrow is the day of all people waiting to countdown and welcome 2008.. i had plan at first which is planned to go ONE UTAMA.. before i went to china, i booked munhoe and suetling.. when i called them just now, suetling told me she is going with others... that time, i really freaking "fire", well... what to do? just fine.. and bye.. besides, there are few people i damn hate.. i don't like them... their sucks attitude.. their action.. many more.. others friend also booked.. really no mood to border but i really want to go.. i called piGhead too.. chatted with her also.. when she said she want .... i keep saying don't!! don't!!.. because i thought she going to say she want sleep and bye bye.. at last i only know she wanted to bath.. oh my god.. what's the time? even we didn't chat much, i take this opportunity to ask her... whether she still interested with me? answer is NO.. i am happy to heard that because at least i knew what she think.. i didn't sad much.. just no feeling.. like no direction.. hard to describe.. maybe this called love.. i saw my horoscope.. it says me "Try not to worry too much about that big decision you're facing -- though it will be tough, if you can hold off on rushing into something, you should be pretty pleased with the eventual outcome." after chat with piG, i felt this sentences quite good.. then i called suyin..

The 119th day without her

2007-12-29T12:51:00.000+08:00

i didn't attend teo's meeting.. i also don't know why.. well, today whole morning spending time to update my blog.. but i still need more more time to update those day i went to china.. later i am going to have lunch with those buddy.. night, i am going to a friend's house warming.. edward is going too.. pretending nothing... happy.. enjoy.. this morning, i viewed some one blog.. i would like to share something here.. i felt quite touching and meaningful.

the different of love & like

Difference between the one
you like
and the one you love

In front of the person you like, your heart
beats faster
But in front of the person you love, you get
happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems
like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is
just beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you like,
you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you
love, you smile.

In front of the person you like, you can't say
everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.

In front of the person you like, you tend to get
shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can
show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of the
one you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the
eyes of the one you love.

When the one you like is crying, you end
up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry
with
them.

The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.

So if you stop liking a person you used to
like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns
into a drop of tear and remains in your heart
forever

another is this website http://www.samuelgoh.net/love/ai_ni_shi_ge_cuo_v1_v1.htmL
touching song..
i still considering whether i am going to find piG after the dinner or not.. i scare she refuse me... try? or don't?

The 118th day without her

2007-12-29T11:33:00.002+08:00

he is wearing my jacket!!! ~.~
3 buddy
our sample..
give us a cool feel..
our yummy waffler.. eat until want vomit!!

yesterday was one of my buddy birthday, munhoe.. we went out together to pavilion for watch movie.. we were crazy... watched two movie.. non-stop.. The Warlords, Aliens VS Predator. after finished the warlords, we rushed for aliens vs predator. this is my first time went to pavilion's gsc cinema as well as munhoe.. both of us were our first time. there is another first time, the second movie we watched, only both of us.. so scary.. wuwu~.~ after finished both movie, we went to find our old friend, chee lup. he is working as a face care stuff at clinique. he gave us some sample for trying.. ^^ hungry..... before went for waffler, i wanted to go perlini's silver for a look... because i wanted to buy something for next year february but don't have nice one.. =( while having our dinner, we chatted a lot of our stuff... i told him many thing because i trust him, i really wanted have a good buddy... there are some stuff i never told to someone(male) before.. actually, this afternoon, i massaged piG whether want have lunch with me or not but she didn't reply me until i saw her online.. i was unhappy.. wuwu~.~ i don't want wasted time... i want to appreciate spend time with her.. but.. ~.~ wuwuwu even she gave me an empty hope, i hope time will fill in something into my empty hope.. good night!!

The 117th day without her

2007-12-29T11:33:00.001+08:00

The 116th day without her

2007-12-29T11:32:00.004+08:00

The 115th day without her

2007-12-29T11:32:00.003+08:00

The 114th day without her

2007-12-29T11:32:00.001+08:00

The 113th day without her

2007-12-29T11:31:00.004+08:00

The 112th day without her

2007-12-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

The 111th day without her

2007-12-29T11:31:00.001+08:00

The 110th day without her

2007-12-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

The 109th day without her

2007-12-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

tomorrow going to china but i haven't pack my stuff because i was busy... finally i done all total four christmas gift.. cool... nice... this morning, i wanted to give up to complete the others two.. but i don't know why, i will complete the others.. i am happy with myself.. really very nice.. it is my first time made it... actually is second time, but this time is different.. tonight i am going to be "santa young man" to give away my limited edition christmas gift.. ^^ pighead was out with someone else for japanese food.. i don't what time she will be back but i have to give it to her by today!! hope me and her will have a good memory...

the 108th day without her

2007-12-18T11:36:00.001+08:00

three person went to klcc... me, kayli and black charcoal.. before meet kayli, black charcoal accompany me go to time square.. i spent quite long to find the shop... at last i made the puzzle.. very costly.. wuwu~.~ RM90.. last year, i made one also, me and yuanteng.. but i don't it still in protected.. because that monkey... wuwu~.~ i met my college lecturer.. a handsome guy.. =) well, we walked quite long, bought many things.. come back to me, when i wanted to buy the chocolates, that seller said out of stock, that time i seems like from happy changed to sad+++ so lucky that, famous armos have sell those chocolates too... wow!! cheer back.... at night, i finished the second gift...!! yeah!! two more to go... i waiting the day to pass the gift to pighead... what respond she wil give me?? hope good respond!!

The 107th day without her

2007-12-18T11:27:00.000+08:00

finally, i done one of the chrismaz gift which is for pighead. even the open part can't open smoothly, i felt it's ok.. what i experienced is, i can't make something exactly same with what we imagine... while doing or making, we have to always change idea to do the max..!! same as the gift, is totally different from my imagination.. thrusday i am going to china, seems like no time do others and buy chocolates, make puzzle... wuwu~.~ i messaged black charcoal to accompany me hang out but she didn't reply.. then kayli called me... she date me to accompany her buy christmas gift for her client.. well, so i promised her.. tired~.~ good night piG!!

The 106th day without her

2007-12-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

my sickness getting a bit worse... my throat is getting more itchy and make me cough often.. today i am extremely tired... being my cousin's brother today and the person who open the door for my cousin. help on a lot.. get scold a lot too... not only me... others too... =) my mind is blurred now... tired... tired... and tired... thanks those who concern me... i didn't think much about pighead... i don't know why... is it i don't have feeling towards her? but i still very worry about the gift... my parents are not allowed me to go out... but i have to... i have three ways to choose- 1) broke my own promise 2) delay the gift( after my trip) 3) done it before my trip wow!!! hard to choose.. i am not feeling well............ for me, i will choose the 3rd choice.. good luck my friend, juNhoe!!

The 105th day without her

2007-12-15T17:10:00.001+08:00

sick... sleep and sleep and sleep... i din't attend teo's meeting.. later night have to attend wedding dinner again... sick!!! i need you take care me!!! accompany me..... !!!

The 104th day without her

2007-12-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

wow!!! i didn't sleep... i hate it!! my stupid habit!! i can't sleep after over time.. bull shit! clubbing was suck at first because the person who take us to maison, he don't know the way to go..!! we almost wasted an hour for finding that place.. Maison the club house, quite small.. quite crowd.. the light, the music not as good as SODA.. some expansive... but important is when you enjoy the process.. i get scold this morning... shit!! bull shit!! my mum called me at 3am but i miss called back, she didn't call back.. our party finished at 3am.. back at 4am... can't sleep then 6.55am dad fetch me to school.. be "pengadil" until 4 something! shit again!! then night, i went to my cousin buffer wedding party at golf club, bukit jalil.. then i sick... my chrismas gift!! i scare i can't make it!!! =(... sorry pighead...

The 103th day without her

2007-12-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

right view
left view
i prefer right view, before that i prefer left view.

a new life start from today... why? because i cut my hair... =.- kay li, my friend score quite good for her UEC result.. 4As 5Bs... congrats to her!! hey, kayli, my hair not bad what? right? more nice than last last time?? ^^ didn't disappointed you... =) i did chat with her today... quite happy but still bad... cause i can fell she avoid me... when mention miss me? she won't bother me until i hello to her... well... consider as not bad.. i should fell happy with it.. i asked her whether interested to go concert on 22th of december... hope she will go.. i can't join because that time, i am enjoying at china.. i dated her to one utama shopping complex but she refuse.. by the way, i should respect her choice.. if with others friend, she might want.. but i don't want!!!!!! tonight, i am going to go exercise with friends.. ^^ i drive ... =( later, i hope can do a bit of the christmas gift..

The 102th day without her

2007-12-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

this morning, many area didn't have electric.. my stomach not feeling well when i walked to the place they gather.. we went to blood bank for visit... quite interesting.. learned how they separated the blood.. how they freeze it... how long the blood can last on.. after that, we went for lunch... a wonderful lunch... a place that no body confirm know to go... is ampang "yong tau fu"! faint~.~ at last, we still reached there.. yummy yummy ^^ then we decided go drink but they don't want.. we just went to carefour to buy the first aids box.. and some medicine.. at home, no electric... cant do anything.. i did messaged suyin, phayli, and pighead.. suyin- on the way back to Kuala Lumpur from Langkawi.. they two had broke up already... i tried my best to cheer up her... but.. i don't like that people trying to cheer up some one and that person throw cold water towards that person.. well, i am ok.. hope she will happy always... phayli- i found her to have drink with me.. i knew her new home.. she moved to new home.. 29th of december, she will have a open house... we mentioned about piGheaD... i really don't want give up like this... i have to do something for her.. i bought the mounting board already.. i will start my work soon... pigheaD- i wanted to find her but she was hang out with her friends.. she really treat me very cool...!!!! i don't want!!! please...~.~.~.~.~

The 101th day without her

2007-12-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

celebrating christmas.. a huge decoration..

today is selangor king's birthday therefore my father didn't work.. off one day... we went one utama shopping... many people.. many sales... i did bought 1 shirt 1 trousers, and my sister too.. we spent quite a lot.. mostly is my sister.. i met simon with his girl friend... then he told me boon chi and junyih also at one utama, as well as huimun working at there also.. i join boonchi and junyih for lunch.. junyih's speaks always ... (bad thing), last time at college, we doing a project.. our groupmate kwee how damn hate him.. almost want hit him... ~.~wuwu on the way back, we went to visit my cousin because he infected dengue.. hope he get well soon... when i hanging around at one utama, i always wanted to bring her to here... when this chance come to me?? wuwu~.~

The 100th day without her

2007-12-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

wow!! 100 days passed.. bored and tired day.. rainy day... almost whole day.... cool cool and cool... last time, people asked my mood or something else, i used to say see the weather how then how... which is the weather is sunny-good mood, rainy-moody or crying .... for the 4 days of camp, i found out i didn't think of stupiG much.... i don't know why, is it i was busy in the camp.. many different new friends? or what? but i grasped something new at the camp, there was 3 talk in the camp, each talk had their meaning.. i hope i can learn through the meaning and do something useful... dare to think, dare to do, dare to assume!!! and from the lyric of the main song of the camp, it said: what kind of thinking will give us what kind of result... means if we think positive, it may give us positive result.. doing something positive is better than think something negative.. i needed to do something.. i hope i can make the chrismax present as fast as i can... pigheaD! take care properly... raining nowadays.... night!

The 99th day without her

2007-12-10T23:27:00.001+08:00

last day of the camp... every one missed this place.... include me... when we sit together.. listening to the main song and others song... many people cry... not include me.. because i am a cool and strong guy!! =) we captured many pictures... hug every one of my group... when finished our cosing ceremony... rain comes... oh my god... the god cries.. =) every one get wet.. bring a unforgettable memory back home... every one was tired.. dinner, me and edward ate at mC.. a delicious meal... 10.30 i went for drink with frankie they all... then went for pool a while.. tired like hell man!! i did messaged with my dear queen.. =)

The 98th day without her

2007-12-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

costume night... which is our campfire night.. noon, we went to walk into the swam... this activity is the mostly famous in every year.. tired... there was a talk today again.. dare to dream, dare to do, dare to assume... think it then do it.. don't doubt too much.. the result no matter is bad or good, at least you do try your best to get it.. you will learn more than just think without action.. time on!! time for us rock..!!! shake and dance!! high!! our leader, group 17 is the winner of the costume competition.. yeah!! after finished, i met a new friend-satay Queen... my queen.. =) she quite talkative... quite fun when we chat together.. we lay on the grass with newspaper and look at the sky... my mind was empty... that time, she and her boy friend just broke.. 2 years.. wow.. i admired you!! i gave her a four leaf grass to cheer up her even she was nothing.. 1-wish her happy, 2-wish her wealthy 3- wish her healthy 4- wish her young? forgotten already.. that midnight, i wanted to know new friends but only myself.. and some more all big big gang sit together.. oh shit!! therefore me and satay Queen chat until 5 then went to sleep.. actually, i am the satay king... ^^

The 97th day without her

2007-12-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

Started our first day of camp... many people arrived when we gathered... besides knowing each others, we have to solve the competition problems.. wuwu~.~ dance and dance and dance; sit and sit and sit.... noon, 20 groups separated into half, 1-10 groups went to swam activity while 11-20 groups went to play games... our group, consider as working together but there was still few people are not cooperate.. well... i played different of new games.. quite interesting.. hope i can pass my experience to my scout members... night, time for us to take part in the competition.. the advertise was separated to different category. our cell phone advertise, we get first prize... cool!!! wow.... i acted as a old fashion phone.. (wong fei hong century)..

The 96th day without her

2007-12-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

morning was rain.... i was rushing myself to go for pudu raya station.. all time with edward in the bus, i don't even ask much about him... but he did ask me a question.. "do you know i am dating with her"?? i answered, "ming zhi gu wen"... we was with others unknown members together in the bus... when we reached, we wait the town bus to take us to the camp site.. wow! cool.. we reached.. near the malacca zoo.. stupid!! because have to walk a long distance to get in... that time, the weather was raining again.... practice dance, listen what should do, make some new friends, join to the group... cool.....

The 95th day without her

2007-12-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday night, i was tired but wanted to talk on the phone with friend therefore, i selected kayli... because she was moody recently too.. but she was at outside.. half an hour later, she called me.. then i wanted to see sy's gift from sa poh.. at last she mms me.. =) then we chatted on the phone quite long.. that time i was tired... closed eyes talking with her.. her problems was the borest part.. but my part was the excited part... why? because we had talk about every one style.. include me.. i will focusing on sapoh and maggie here.. sy senses: 1)maggie- she might her many boys who like her because she confuse herself which one she like.. but she will like a person, appreciate a person through a deep hurt from a lesson. 2) sa poh- she was innocent person.. treat everyone super good.. don't know love stuff.. even she like some body else, maybe she don't also.. only time may cure her innocent.. become more mature.. i quite agree with it.. for me, both have their good and bad.. among both of them and piGhead, i will choose piGhead at first.. sometimes, it's hard for us to decide.. i needed to consider every thing in further. today was one of the bored day in my life.. wuwu~.~ yeah.. Junhoe will coming up with 2007year chrismas girt collection edition... limited... only four... cool...!! who is the luckiest??? tomorrow will be going to malacca camp.. excited? nope.. no feeling at all.. rock and roll!!!

The 94th day without her

2007-12-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

today is our class gathering.. who will remember this day? i think not much.. i had asked those who joined our gathering- 10 human, included me. mostly knew today but don't know is 4/12... well... many of us disappointed with the "gathering".. the person who host came late an hour.. is this show good for every one? even we are friend, i still quite fed up with it.. i don't like you, means i don't like... i din't talk much with cheewai also.... cause i don't like.. joey is same but i still talk crap with him. This gathering was planned this mid night 12 something.. disappointed.. ~.~wuwu if this time i host, will this happen again? ^^ i wont be a hoster anymore unless miracle come to me... this time, i quite enjoy myself... didn't show my cool attitude like previous gathering.. long time didn't heard maggie called me MR JUN... =) huiying's brother.. oh my god.. bleed when talk about him.. luenchong, talk less, no idea what to talk... kh, sick of anxious at first, but after that normal.. because of ..?? (secret) wc, back bone problem... sl, crazy, happiest among us.. sy, same as kh... joey, lame as usual.. cheewai, no idea.. me, wow... cool.. enjoy.. no one knows when am i happy or sad... unless i tell... a mysterious guy... ^^ before this gathering, me, wailun and kh went to shop at time square and sungei wang plaza.. me and wailun bought something new.. i bought a cloth, some sort of singlet. i get a BON bear( so zai long) from sa poh and sy as my birthday present.. weird.. thanks.. lunch, we did drink beer... talk our privacy stuff.. unless me... =) pretending to them.. cool maN! miss pigheaD super the much.. i miss her smile... her sweetest smile.. miss her like star so high(last time she said that she like me got star so high), miss her like condominium so high(last time we said) ..

The 93 day without her

2007-12-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

Finally, we bought the bus ticket to Malacca with edward... i talk very the less with him, pretending nothing happened with us.. because i am still haven't forgive him.. even thought i felt i wanted to be like last time.. actually, i planned to cut my hair too.. but seems like quite nice.. i didn't cut.. but i accompany him cut.. he was angry with his hair.. well what to do? afternoon, i sent my sister to return her books to my friend's sister.. the camp is almost near and near... seems like i am not a responsible person... i am fed up to discuss much on it... why? i don't know... lazy is my reason? maybe.. miss her so much...

The 92th day without her

2007-12-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

Encore Night was not bad yesterday.. i showed out my coolest of my own self through the whole night.. i was enjoy our pizza dinner.. i was surprising myself.. but i think i did right.. fool is part of my entertainment while cool is my part of attitude.. ^^ i like it.. yeah! thanks to you you and you and you you ..... her smile always the sweetest... =) i was scare that i cant fall as sleep... i felt that if i really cant sleep again, i will fall sick.. lucky i can sleep well even was not long... scouting this morning.. i felt that i am not a good trainer but i am a good fooler.. ^^ sorry to you all (my members that i teach).. afternoon, we went to luen chong's house for lunch, his brother marriage.. back home, i sleep... =) i chatted with pighead but she was busy.. i knew she was avoiding me.. what to do so? just be patient wait and see my fate.. but i wanted to thanks god... God gave a nice and good chance for me to see her smile... =) yeah! i still feel very hot and tired...finally, my best friend "xiao hua chi" online.. she finished her exam.. good luck for her result.!!

The 91th day without her

2007-12-01T12:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday, at first i thought that i have chance because she replied me.. when asked need to fetch.. she didn't reply at all.. i sent 3 message.. but no respond also.. wuwu~.~ i really quite sad about it.. what to do? not the first time.. i went to watch movie yesterday night- enchanted... that time, i am still in consideration.. because pighead didn't have any respond at that time... have to make a choice of two at one time.. wuwu~.~ i did a stupid thing.. why i parked my car at pekeliling ?? wuwu~.~ maybe, i more prefer on public transport.. well.. we missed the last train.. just late one minute.. therefore no choice, we took cab back to pekeliling then fetch them back.. i felt guilty to her... make her went back so late.. it was our first time so late back home... wuwu~.~ it was my responsible.. i should not delay till too late.. her mum waked up after she brushed her teeth.. so funny!! by the way, i did apologized to her.. =) now, i super extremely tired.. i can't sleep whole night.. my psychology's problem comes again.. this the main reason that made me can't sleep.. before reached home, there was a gang of pig malays hanging around the street in late.. so damn brainless!! the only way is wait them get off.. so tired to go for teo's meeting.. cpr training today. this coming evening i am going to a concert at tar college but i am tired... =( sometimes, things that shouldn't tell out, should be make it as mysterious.. i read before, as a scorpio, his or her attitude should be mysterious.. but for me, i think .. it wasn't.. i am not in good condition now.. but i still thinking of you.... piG!!

The 90th day without her

2007-11-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

three months... it had been passed three months... many things had happened between these days.. -joys, sadness, bored... today i should going out with yuanteng.. but... wuwu~.~ yesterday when i called her, when i heard she said that have to cancel.. i very angry with it... always last minute tell me.. what the hack! then i said if i didn't call you, you wont tell me?? she said she just finished bath.. wanted to call me.. that time i only cool down myself.. sad !!! i heard something from her that about "chocolate".. i have nothing to do... just now, my sister told me that want to go 1Utama shopping complex.. sure good.. ^^ pighead is coming back for her holiday i think... she will be back tonight.. i wanted to fetch her... but i know she sure don't want.. should i massage her?? 50% 50% chances.. help me please...!!

The 89th day without her

2007-11-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

Quite a good day... went out with munhoe... actually called joey they all but they refused.. well, never mind, just we two is ok too... we just confirmed the location and time in this morning... he late for an hour!!! =} we watched BEOWULF... my friend told me that this movie was not nice.. once i watched.. i felt quite nice.. it was not human act, it was all made by computer technology.. before movie started, i went gasalin have a drink... the environment i super like.. ^^ i knew two new friend of him.. one is Carol and another is Michael. three of them study travel.. night, i had drink with sa poh they all.. many stranger.. unknown people.. when everyone was back, left me and sa poh... while waiting her brother, i accompany her wait her brother.. her brother fetched me back too.. i lend her a "movie".... ^^ and two comics (stupid dragon)... don't know how is piGhead's condition??.... be happy... i will give you a surprise chrismax present yea!..

The 88th day without her

2007-11-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was mad.. first, my friend can't edit pictures for me(but i tried scanned again with higher dpi) second, my sister dropped my 0142217133's sim card into her piano. then others stuff.. wuwu~.~ today i supposed to be happy, just like normal... but i can't... she was not happy therefore, i accompany her not happy too.. =) later i will message her, try my best to cheer up her.. [h][a][p][p][y]...

The 87th day without her

2007-11-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

she really pretty... more and more pretty... every one have changed a lot... include myself... she was happy with her self as i see through pictures... i should happy with her also... yuanteng messaged me today.. quite a surprise.. she asked me how to go 1utama shopping complex.. this friday, she don't want me to bring my friend.. wuwu~.~ but i will try to bring.. ^^ just now, i called my friend, joseph to help me edit picture.. i needed to make puzzle for her as christmax gift.. yeah.. ^^ finally, me and joey had finished design the "shu qian" gift for the blood campaign... fei wen head of the blood campaign very satisfy with it... she can't imagine that we can designed it so fast... because, last night she called to to design... i can't draw well, but i can give idea... therefore, i find joey to design together. mostly of my day spent at his house.. i had tried joey's cook... actually just boiled the sup... quite nice.. ^^ few months ago.. pighead cooked maggie mee for me too... =) i am her first guy enjoy her cook, even just a maggie mee. Wanted chat with her.. but ......

The 86th day without her

2007-11-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

A good boy day for me.. morning, i canceled going out... i called sa poh's house.. so stupid.. i asked for suet ling but his brother called suet ting... so cute her sister.. stupid stupid... the blank dvds that she gave me can't burn.. next time only borrow her the original dvd... cool stuff!!! she told me that she dream .... (secret) noon, i sent my sister for piano tuition, wait her for an hour... -sleep. wuwu~.~ i watched one of the sa poh's dvds that she lend to me.. "the hill got eyes 2" last time, i heard people said this movie quite scary, nice, excited... on my view, i think that very poor.. bored... bad than ok... ^^ miss pighead yea.... wuwu~.~

The 85th day without her

2007-11-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

^^ i watched part 1 and part 2 of a story yesterday.. quite surprising me and interesting. today i waked up very early for duty of a fun walk at bangsar. my apprentice sent me a message that she walked to lrt station... what?! i quickly told her, i fetch her... at last i fetched her... she was stubborn!! just a bored duty day!! nothing happened... wuwu~.~ after finished, we discussed quite long... always like that... others college gang also... waiting luck arrive.... wuwu~.~ we went to have our lunch near by.... what the hack!! the "nasi briyani" cost 12 ringgit!! by the way, lucky quite nice.. after that we discussed quite long again!! then we decided go for sing... wow!! 4 hours!! first time so enjoy.. ^^ siao ying seems moody... maybe related to me also.. i do apologize... then fetch them back... me and si fatt guai chatted a lot too... wow... super tired and fun day... this coming friday.. i am going sunway meet yuanteng.. maybe bringing her too... yeah... i wanted pighead send me her pictures... but she was away.. =( scare she feel i was irritated.. wanted to watch "secret" before sleep, but just a song when played in the dvd player.. i watched this movie half way.. try to imagine.. if the 2 character are me and stupiG.. dreaming me...

The 84th day without her

2007-11-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

Wanted to swim... but that stupid guy don't want... =( after my eaten, i continued sleep until 1 something.. this time i think i was dreaming... i don't why i said like this because.... i felt someone behind me hug me.. disturbing me.. i thought the person was my daddy.. so i didn't bother... the more i sleep, the more i tired.. sleep like a piG.. when i was awaken, i looked outside, my daddy's car wasn't back yet.. am i dreaming or ??? i did chat with piGheaD today.. she was very happy... because .. spent quite a lot on her shopping.. actually, i don't like she spent money like drink water.. i know she likes shop... but there is also a limitation.. i do like shop with her.. i also wanted buy new cloths for her... wanted her dress up nicely.. sweetly.. wanted see her smile.. why i don't like she spent? because.. she only have her mother to take care of them... so i don't want to see her mother suffer financial problem.. i still remembered, she angry me because of her laptop.. wuwu~.~ just now, she shown me few of her pictures with her new dress... 1 word! sweet....!!! i was happy when looked at the pictures... ^^ hope that she send to me... just now she was busy.. tonight, my mother's brother going to celebrate his birthday.. so we are going there for dinner... just behind our house.. pighead... eat more and take care more yourself.. since you started talk with me.. i should appreciate this chance.. now, i won't action foolishly.. just maintain like last time.. sometimes, i did too care you, because i am too worry you.. hope one day, you will understand me..

The 83th day without her

2007-11-23T15:21:00.000+08:00

i refused my friend's date... i think this is my first time promised people then refused people... "put aeroplane or fong fei gey" ... too bad me?? actually, i just don't want my parents fed up with me.. sorry friends... bored day!!!!!!!!!!! besides facing on computer, watch movie, day dreaming.. nothing can do... i refreshed back the memories with pighead.. the moment we together- "a moment like this". take care... !!

The 82th day without her

2007-11-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

this morning, when i switched on my cell phone, i get a massage her suet ling, said that there was a meeting at teo's house at 2p.m. after fetched my sister to monoroil station at titiwangsa, i went to find my apprentice for breakfast.. wow, before that, my sister... no... me... stupiG me.. show the wrong direction to my sister to star lrt station.... when i realized, i immediately called her... then bring her out... lucky she didn't go inside the train... while having breakfast with my apprentice, finally, i knew who's that guy... ^^ half way eating, my brother called me.... asked me whether can fetch him to his college at PJ. then after ate, straight went back and fetch him.. i thought that i will be late to teo there.. because traffic jam.. lucky, we still arrived teo there early.. this sunday, we will having a duty near midvalley.. have to wake up early... wuwu~.~ before i went back, chee wai asked whether want to go night market or not.. i refused him.. because...... i don't want to drive.. but at night, monkey told me he did want go... he drive so i follow.. his driving skill become more danger and danger.. so scary... after that, we went for movie.. crazy man!! i called my apprentice also... we watched the Kingdom.. a good movie... not bad.. but for certain people, they won't enjoy... my apprentice vomit while watching... pity her.. ya, one more thing, i met my ex-primary schoolmate. I do like to introduce her in here, she called carmen... now she moved to cheras.. our relation was quite complicated last time.. ^^ good night pighead..

The 81th day without her

2007-11-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

I didn't met up with chee wai they all at LRT station, i went there by my own. At first, i thought that i wanted go there earlier looking forward what i wanted to buy for her.. i wanted to make puzzle for her as chrismax present, total is 4 set... but... quite costly. what should i do? another thing is a cup.. full of her pictures.. as well as mine if got.. well, still got long time, so i didn't went there earlier.. i reached there earlier than them... walk and walk without purpose.. when met them, they said si fatt guai there also.. then i went to find her... i saw her sister.. cute.. but bit of "dai dai"... sing time... i quite enjoyed the moment with them but i am not quite good on that kind of stuff... wuwu~.~ finished, monkey went tuition, we went to shop... walked until my leg wanted to break! cheewai bought a some soft of jacket.. colorful while joey bought a pair of shoe... dinner, we went to night market... wow! a day gone with full of tiredness... some more, i bought 2 packet of supper for my parents but... only eaten one.. because... my father just taken his dinner when i get back home... wuwu~.~ too bad.. "pighead pighead where are you, who is the pretties in the world..??" the answer is... .... don't know.. ^^ you?? maybe.. crazy me.. wuwu~.~

The 80th day without her

2007-11-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

Cool! talk time record for me, 4 hours and 20 minutes.. if still continue on it, i think will be more than 5 hours.. ^^ this was happened yesterday... =) i serviced my car... now the air condition back to normal... so cool... whole day watched movie... tired plus bored... wanted to find them drink but.. bit of lazy... wuwu~.~ tomorrow i am going to sing K... happy? is it my cup of tea? actually, i wanted to try accept this cup of tea.. ^^ because can sing with pighead.. if got this chances... =) don't know what is she doing now... misss~~~

The 79th day without her

2007-11-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

wow!!!.. finally, i finished my semester2.. coming up by semester3.. semester4,5,6... these day, keep on memories and memories and my last exam was not tough as my imagination.. quite easy actually, but there was an essay i can't really understand, just did what ever i know.. ^^ recently, i had a apprentice.. she is chaw chuen, sapoh's friend.. our relation quite good.. many stuff to share.. chat.. we had exchange our secret.. i am the first human that had her blog's link... quite secret.. while there was a sadness condition that happened to my friend, kayli.. she was in bad bad bad mood(tearing) yesterday when i was studying. i tried my best to cheer up her.. every massage had full of cheering sign... well, i hope she will be fine soon, the prom night stuff will going smooth... now, my condition is so tired. we went to swim again.... this time, we captured many pictures... various of stupid post... ^^ full of tiredness... pig pig... wuwu~.~ i wanted massage her.................. T.T... take care ya..

The 78th day without her

2007-11-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

Scouting.... long time didn't went back, today i felt that the relation between me and the group that i taught have been improved.. that shown a good sign.. but i still can't memories all their names.. Oh my god.. almost a year.. i still can't remember everyone name.. get back home, felt tired after ate and bath therefore.. what should i do?? sure have a good nap.. but.. =( can't sleep well also.. don't why.. awaken later, i started seriously revise.. memories and memories... bored!!! today is yankher's birthday, they called me up to have dinner with them at One station.. so, i didn't follow my family for dinner.. they went the Mall... =( next station, some went for movie, some went back, and me, went back home blogging, surfing net then later will be revising soon... the day after tomorrow, i can fly... ^^ i set pighead's picture in my cellphone, every time i see her at the screen, i will touch her face... i will have the feeling that i don't know how to express.. some soft of sad, happy, want cry(tears), miss her.. all mixed together.. revise time ya... misssssssss you!

The 77th day without her

2007-11-17T13:50:00.000+08:00

whole night can't sleep well..........!!!! i don't whether was the cup of coffee or, the previous day i didn't have enough sleep, felt my whole body very hot.. every time i saw pighead's pictures.. my tears wanted to drop... i miss her a lot... especially her smile.... i did said before, when ever i sad, angry her, not happy, her smile can cure me as medicine... i will naturally turn up happy.. i did sent her a massage through cell phone as a morning wish.. she didn't reply.. but i knew she won't... my sense told me.. but i really miss her... study study study but need to study what?? i study after had my breakfast.. except memories, not much thing to study also... wuwu~.~

The 76th day without her

2007-11-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

i am so proud of myself!! today started my first exam, yesterday midnight, i talked on the phone with suyiN... wow... cool.. i had to wake up early this morning.. felt super tired.. i drove to college today.. 2 hours drove.. wuwu~.~ today exam, i don't have much time to finish it... T.T... if i didn't simply wrote the answer, i will lose 15 marks over 60... Oh my god... junHoe.. if i get 24 over 60, i will passed the exam.. =) well, this time, mostly of people don't have much time to complete it well... yeah! one more paper to go..!! after monday, i can be more relax as i want... but... is it a good sign?? i don't think so.... wuwu~.~ i went to monkey's condominium swim... this time, wailun and luen chung went too.... more fun than just me and monkey... ^^ this was my first time swim so many times in the pool... a tired day gone by like this... i wanted to have a nap, but seems like can't sleep well... ~.~ night, actually want to find 3 of the pretty girl for drink but they can't... so joined sapoH and her friends... with monkey too... they felt super relax after finished their exam... but super tired... because they went to rock!!...

The 75th day without her

2007-11-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

wuwu~.~ T.T tomorrow start my first paper of test.. no feeling at all... but a bit of not feeling well towards my self, maybe didn't read anything.. i tried to find out all the passage sir gave, just gone through few only... ^^ i disturbed sa poh this noon, massaged lots of crap, lame... she thought i am not happy... something happened to me... ya, its something happened to me, i miss pighead a lot... think of wanted to make what for her.. i had an idea already, which is a CUP!! with pictures of her, mostly... and some include me and her... wow!! perfect man!!... good imagination!! as an architecture student, we should always have good imagination!! ^^ =) mauck!!

The 74th day without her

2007-11-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday night, i massaged with suyiN. recently her mood is not in good condition, mostly is related to his boyfriend, i really don't understand why his boyfriend don't appreciate and tolerate suyiN... hey! she is just a little girl... she learned bake cake because of him, where can you find a girl like her?? it's hard!! out of 10, i think only 2-4 only will do that.. she promised bake a cake for me as my birthday present.... but she wanted to stop bake anymore... wuwu~.~ sad.... T.T she told me, she going to stop their relation after his boyfriend's spM exam. well... maybe she just said... i know her.. wish her happy happy always.. anything happened, i will be there to support you ya!! my turn, i felt myself useless.. wasted time... i took out my notes and wanted to study but, i looked on the notes, read and read without go in my brain, whats different with didn't read?? pig me!! wuwu~.~ i went to monkey's condominium for swim.. long time didn't exercise, felt very tired especially my both arm. then before sent monkey to lrt station, we went to BRJ for lunch, he treated me.. thanks! just now, i did wanted to chat with pighead but i think her connection got problem, the massage can't reach her. wuwu~.~ then good night ya!!

The 73th day without her

2007-11-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

T.T!!! my daddy always say me looks like a girl... oh my god!!! but if i style my hair, it will be look nice... wuwu~.~ bored and useless day... wanted swim at monkey's condo, but he went out and rain.. black luck!! kayli called me just now.. she bought me a gift, thanks.. don't know what is she doing now... ^^

The 72th day without her

2007-11-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

we arrived college bout 11 to print and summit our assignments... after that, one of my friend said wanted to go mid valley as celebration to me.. i sure happy with that.. they still remember me.. ^^ yeong chwen not feeling well so he went back by KTM.. then we-three of us, joseph, choong wai, zaki and najat met at mid valley, we ate ayam mas then watched 30 days of night... a horror movie..!! quite excited plus scary plus "wai" and funny... ^^ this movie, remind me when i watched a scary movie with pidhead, she graped my hand... pulled my shirt.. so sweet memory... =) after that, we straight went back home after movie.. because of traffic jam..!! i slept comfortable inside the car, maybe i was too tired.. my day gone just like this... friday, is my first paper of exam... faster pass these two exam then i can relax... ^^ i felt my eyes sight getting worse, maybe was the yesterday rushed assignment without allowed my eyes rest...

The 71th day without her

2007-11-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

bye pighead... be careful and take care.. i didn't attend scouting because i was super tired.. seems like didn't sleep at all... wuwu~.~ i wish to attend but feel not well.. i slept quite late.. lets share my date!! after branch, i started to choose pictures, sketch pictures, cut pictures, pasted pictures from 12p.m until 5 something.. then came my relative, i listened to their grandmother story as my resting.. then continued... after bath and dinner, still continue.... like unstop robotic... i finished at 3a.m midnight... included 2 assignment-sketches and pictures with analyzed, research essay. did like hell... my both parent went to a friend wedding.. before 12a.m, they reached back home and ate cake together, they bought me 8 type of different secret recipe cake. i ate Moise chocolate cake.. yum yum~~ even was not a happy day for me, i felt warm and happy from my family... i should happy with it.. liked yesterday dinner... is hard to have a family like me... pighead's father had pass away since she was small.. she don't have care, love from her father, therefore, i should appreciate what i have now and fell happy..!! i will replace back my happiness with my friends after my exam... happiness, please wait me.. pighead, besides miss you and thank you, i also felt happy that you wished me too.. well.. one more thing, this year, i didn't make any wish, that time celebration with freinds, we straight blew the candles... then just now eat cake without singing so there is no wishing.. the only good chance is wish in here.. ^^ i hope ... (secret) =)

The 70th day without her

2007-11-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

Before go dinner, my sister's glasses... yeah~.~

Lazy to wake up this morning, i am still doubting whether want go for meeting (VAD). sa pod said that she will go, so i also follow.. i thought today will learn something, at last just discussed things, chit chattering... wuwu~.~ after finished, i didn't followed them for lunch.. sent sa poh and sy back home, i straight went back home, it was raining that time.. i still have 2 individual assignment needed to do but i can't do at all due to the heavy rain!! shit!! eaten my pizza and nugget, i slept awhile.. started to rush my assignment when awaken.. tonight, my family brought me to EDEN for dinner as celebration with my grandpa. quite costly!! i continued to rush my assignment until midnight. 12a.m was my birthday... happy birthday junhOe... am i happy?? rushing assignment as my birthday present ya? ^^ i am wishing and waiting piGhead wish me... but while wait until i wanted go to bed, still waiting none... wuwu~.~ i received quite lots of wishing.. thanks man! i called shy to chat but just awhile.. quite surprising and made me happy was pui yee mei called me and wished me, there was another person too-phayli.. they two really made me happy.. glad to thank them!

The 69th day without her

2007-11-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

cool?? don't play play!!

Again!! stomach not feeling well... oh my god.. T.T munhoe found me today, actually he wanted to date me but my cell phone in silent mode so... whole afternoon, watch movie.. besides doing nothing.. so useless!! i still have 2 assignment have to pass up next monday.. 2 days left.. wuwu~.~ don't how to die.. night, i have a urgent meeting(scout), when i arrived.. i saw few scout members also at there.. they went there for learn dance.. at last, we realized my meeting canceled, their dance canceled... the most sad part wasn't the meeting canceled.. it was my car get bang at the school gate.. sob sob!!! i didn't went back home, stay back play with them... learn some dance.. ^^ i also captured few pictures with a violin.. like professional.. =) pighead did played violin too... feel want to listen she play... i heard once before on the phone... miss you ~.~

The 68th day without her

2007-11-09T11:37:00.000+08:00

Joyce, Jennife, JunhOe

Cheese~~~ =)

yummy strawberrY!!

-) blek!!

thinking of her...

My stomach not feeling well again!! what the hell man!! afternoon, i went my singh friend's open house for lunch because of deepavali.. his mother's cook quite delicious.. then i followed chow hong gone back earlier.. before back, me and harmander drunk a cup of alcohol... ^^ night time, i went to "xiao shu" for 4 person's celebration but only 3 came... happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me???? or i should sing, sad birthday to me, sad birthday to me, sad birthday to me, sad birthday to me???? i think sad is more suitable. well, in here, i would like to thank again to my friends who celebrated with me.. even not happy, i will appreciate the moment with you guys! the t-shirt i like it.. after finished, we didn't go any where.. therefore i went to find an nai.. we chatted inside the car almost 2 hours... we chatted about me, her, jian shern, and pighead sure won't less... each had their happiness, sadness, confuse, doubt.. . . . so? what can we do? how can we do? we only can try our best to think openly.. don't think too deeply.. i felt wanted to cry.. today, i met pighead... i fetched her also... but we didn't talk much also.. the only thing i ask was when are you going back... wuwu~.~ actually i planned to date her this sunday to One Utama or The Curve.. but i think this chance won't come true.. i wanted the first guy bring her to One Utama or The Curve... pighead... i really want.. and i really want cry.... i wanted you accompany me.. chat with me.. like last time... after her birthday celebration, i accompany her, sleep at my chest... i felt so warm... i still remember her smell... ^^ is it the end between us? please don't... T.T

The 67th day without her

2007-11-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

boring day.... I will die if everyday repeating the same thing which are wake up, eat, watch, sleep, eat, online, sleep.. I will die soon.. I finished a movie called “ fei duan liu chang”... quite a nice show.. today, I sent a massage to pig that wanted me to fetch her or not through msn while offline. never mind... just consider I did what I can do for her.. I called sa poh this evening, we also chatted quite long.. she wont be going tomorrow noon and night.. quite sad... tomorrow noon, i have to meet my singh friend 1230 with chow hong too.. my best friend knew my recently... I felt happy when chatting with her.. all the best to her following daYs!! pig...... miss you!

The 66th day without her

2007-11-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

Oh my god! oh my goodness! oh my gosh! oh my junhoe! besides these, i don't what else can say.. actually i knew it earlier already, i told my friend before, and i thinking recently.. i wanted to ask also but today i saw it.. i read it.. i knew it.. BUT i don't whether was me or not.. my sense telling, it was me!! i don't know whether should i share the massage in here or not... by the way.... treat as friend is better.. =) so, please don't think too much.. everything will be fine.. at night, i went to chong hwa independent school for a concert.. overall is ok... if i rate 1-5, i will rate 4.5.. i knew some new friends too... all was kay li's friends... ^^ today her trips brought 9 japanese girls visit KL.. some quite pretty.. some quite mature.. some quite ... ^^ this afternoon, we went to college for discuss our project.. stupid me, borrowed my cell phone to my naughty sister.. wuwu~.~ went there for nothing... =( at college, i did chat with piG awhile.. that time almost reach 2p.m. she had a exam at 2p.m. tomorrow, she will finish her exam.. i am wishing... i will spending whole saturday with her.. if chance allowed me... recently i quite happy because of her... last paper, gambady! ya, one more thing.. this thrusday afternoon, there is a open house of my friend, i will attend but the evening part.. i still doubting. why i say so... first, no one inform me... second, i don't know whether am i free... third, i just heard from sa poh and monkey... i think without invite me with heart, used to attend also won't enjoy much.. i am just waiting for piG and sapoh, chow hong, me... yeah!! wuwu~.~

The 65th day without her

2007-11-05T15:24:00.000+08:00

yeah!! my semester ended.. now waiting for exam and there are still have few work need to pass up... today whole day just writing blog.... replaced last week... i felt that pighead going appear in my mind.. i don't know why... and i don't want to know why... i just wanted to know, is she celebrating my birthday with me or not... this coming deepavali, there is a open house at noon and a celebration for others friend at night.. sa poh keep on asking me whether am i going or not... if she go, then i will go... ^^ cool choices...!! i think pighead is having exam... nothing i can do more to her.. just good luck and mentally support her!!

The 64th day without you

2007-11-05T15:22:00.001+08:00

Still sick... ~.~ i didn't go for scouting.. but afternoon, i went to the Curve to capture pictures as our groups assignment.. night, went to drink with lee mun, ying and wai hoong. wuwu~.~ felt better than previous day..

The 63th day without her

2007-11-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

still sicking... munhoe found me yesterday.. asked me wanted to go out on today... wuwu~.~ sorry friend... i am not feeling well... sleep like pig...

The 62th day without her

2007-11-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

i sicked... afternoon, sa poh messaged me that want to drink... i refuse her because i am not in a good condition... fever too... head felt pain and dizzy... really hope some one will beside me.. accompany me.. give me care... only 2 person gave me care- one is kayli, one is si fatt guai.. wuwu~.~

The 61th day without her

2007-11-05T14:39:00.000+08:00

Continue yesterday(this morning)... at noon, we have to present our project work before pass up... and another work just pass it up that's it. our miss very disappointed to out presentation and the project we modify.. sorry miss.. i can't give any comment to my group work because, at the last few days, i didn't help on much.... i just rushing my own work... forget about it.. it was over.. after that we went sunway for movie, me joseph chun yee choong wai. we watched "bullet and brain".. quite ok... after that we walk around with our tiredness... that time i was hungry and my stomach still not in a good condition.. but i still eat because very hungry, scare of gastric.. after meal, my stomach more more more worst.. wuwu~.~ please cure me... before went back, kay li cell phone still with me, so i passed to her at her school, and that night was her form 6 prom night.. then i went there a while... i quite like it.... long time don't have that feel.. i met up chien hueu and man keat, both of them is my britich council tuition friend. i reached home about 11 something... super extremely tired... and not comfortable... after bath, after get "!@#$%^&" then i went to have a sweet sleep... =)

The 60th day without her

2007-11-05T13:44:00.000+08:00

wow... the day i wait had came... which is presentation.. ^^ i waked up early also than usual then styled and dressed smart.... actually i quite confident but i scared forgotten what i wanted to say... lucky at my turn.. i quite satisfy myself.. this time, they used view cam to record our presentation. before my turn came, sir keep on talking with me... eee... he gay me... ^^ touched me a lot... vomit~~ after i presented, i asked sir, how was my presentation? he said "ke yi la". ~.~ then i said, means? rating 1-5, how many? later he calculated the marks for me.. i get ... ... .... 7.9 over 10. it's quite satisfy me.. yeah! happy day without fieriness.. i going to die!! tomorrow have to pass up assignment... i just done it half way. after class, we stay back quite long... i get back home almost reach 8. after dinner, we decided to go kwee how's house to rush, but canceled!! wuwu ~.~ then i decided to go chun yee's house.. i online a while.. i saw pighead online also therefore, i took out my brave a click her~

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

helo.. there?

ytd did u ask me smt?

xx says:

没有

xx says:

那个是ｖｉｒｕｓ

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well.. Ok...

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

hw r u?
xx says:

eerr

xx says:

mayb nOt bad

xx says:

still ok lar

xx says:

havt die yet

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

u stil wan cool war wit me??

xx says:

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

bt... did u angry me ?

xx says:

duno

xx says:

No feeling Now

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

no feeling nw means?

xx says:

no angry lar

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

before tat? before u start no feelin, did u angry me?

xx says:

dunNo

xx says:

mayb No

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

revising?

xx says:

so many ppl chatting

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well.. last question b4 i stop,

our relation ended? i juzt wanted to noe.. i really mis u alot..

xx says:

ooo

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

?? har

means

xx says:

if u dun wan end

xx says:

can dun end de

xx says:

i mean friend..

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well... if nt bout "fren"?

xx says:

DunNo

xx says:

Now i nt interest wif tat

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

how about lik tis, we maintain the relation "fren" as last time? can? others relation, we dun talk bout it til some day.. ok mou?

xx says:

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

can i cal u pighead? ^^

xx says:

dun wan

xx says:

im cool gal

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

well... nx time oli think,,

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i gotto go out le..

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i stil love n mis u.. tats all.. bye bye.. rmbed wat u said "o"

xx says:

bye

mEim0t0ji zud0t0 Rim0ku (junhOe) says:

i really dunwan lost u... as u said b4..!

These was what we chatted... actually i quite happy enough.. better than don't what she thinking.. before went chun yee's house, i went to find kayli for have a drink. she always say some one quite similar with me... ~.~ tomorrow, is my last day of semester and die day for me, i still wasting time drink with friend.. =.= when i wanted to find my friend, i can't get him through his cell phone and house phone... i was so mad .... kayli borrowed one of her cell phone to me.. thanks her a lot... at last, lucky i can get through him.. my stomach felt weird weird, not feeling well when drink with kay li... at my friend's house, while doing our own assignment, my stomach started not feeling well.. until midnight 3 something almost 4a.m, we went to Seven Eleven(711) for supper... maggie mee... i felt better after served but, when reached his house continue our work, i started not feeling well again... before 5am, my friend can't stand his tiredness then went to sleep. i continue my work until 5 something near 6am, i went to sleep a while... we waked up 730am to continue... rushing and rushing until 11something, before went to college, we ate at outside, my stomach felt more worst.... ~.~ help me...

The 59th day without her

2007-11-05T13:24:00.000+08:00

boring day!!... no point came to college but we have to, have to pass up a portfolio draft for our project. we still went to college as usual to do our solid construction project. chit chattering, fooling around, crapping around... day gone by like this... is this cool?? ^^ maybe.. yes no yes no.. at evening, i rush my design theory assignment.. while rushing.. suddenly ... came a sudden... pighead message me by msn... that time i "ngong" already. she said "is it ok if I add this pic to my new slideshow?" Then i answered her : "huhh?? are you askin me?? every of ur pic oso nice..." that time her msn shown as appear offline. before i wanted to offline, she replied "wanna see my pics before i send em to face book?" it was so weird.. asking something like this with appear offline.. wuwu~.~ actually i also already happy enough, =)

The 58th day without her

2007-11-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

Bullshit!!! anyone know that, when a person scold "bullshit", what it means? the person funny? the person lame? the person happy? the person angry? maybe.. for me, i damn angry!! i waked up early to style my hair, dressed smart ... when i reached college, i getting more nervous than usual, it's normal. after get into class, sir said XXX, YYY, ZZZ, .... to have delay to next class which is wednesday.. that time, my fieriness seems like wanted to kill some one!! no choice.. after lunch, we stay back a while then went back... sad.... if pighead is here for me, my sad will fly away lu~~

The 57th day without her

2007-11-05T13:02:00.000+08:00

Today, rover scout went to Taman Pertanian, i didn't follow because i don't have time to play anymore. tomorrow, i have to present and whole week i will be rushing and rushing. oh my gosh!! actually i decided not to go for scouting but my master called me to have a look on them therefore i went there a while... after having breakfast with parents, i just started my work. after i done my presentation slide, i keep on practicing and practicing. until evening, rain and storm came, just switched off the computer.. ~.~ night, i continued practice and watch movie(tian ji bian) ... ^^ recently, me and kay li keep in touch often.. she quite a nice girl... for me, pighead is more nicer.. ^^

The 56th day without her

2007-11-05T12:23:00.000+08:00

wake up early in the morning for play basketball at TAR College. am i enjoy this match? maybe i am not a good player. missed many shoot.. wuwu~.~ came back home, tired like hell. tonight my mum and dad going out for wedding dinner therefore i decided to bring my sister out for dinner with my friend. afternoon time, i rush for my assignment because i knew that tonight i wont be doing or using this computer. before go for dinner, si fatt guai come to my house first. she cut her hair... quite nice =) my father get shock when he come inside my room... ^^ we said that meet at about 7, but we delay until almost 8 only arrived there ~.~ wuwu.. half way, kay li called me... wow! she finished my 55th day of my story... the first cool girl i had never seen, some more she knew who is that girl... clever!! i admire her.... wise people is the coolest person! she did wrote something in her blog... she said that i familiar with a guy... i would like to share this which is what she wrote to me :

俊豪友

刚刚一次过看完你的部落格，那五十二天……

你让我想起了一些事，因为你实在太像一个男生了……

谢谢你告诉了我身边的许多事，好多里头的内容我都听过。

才发现其实你不是当我是泛泛之交。

以前有个男生很像你，不过女主角是我。

曾经跟他很靠近，他再网上爱上了我的诗，

后来发现是他的同班同学——我写的，他喜欢了我。

他曾经跟好多女生在一起过，

在他的口中，没有女生拒绝过他，而我，是第一个。

我对他没有信心，因我很敏感。

他是我前男友的兄弟。

我不能接受。

他了解。

他不断的付出，好多的事情了，我快要忘了。

我只记得他做了好多好多的东西，让我对他有信心。

他写了好多东西给我，打了好多关心的电话。

有一天我被他感动了，我抱住了他。

他很记得，那一次的回忆。

过后，我依然拒绝了他。

原因？我忘了。

我只记得，那是我的问题，不是他不好。

我觉得很难受。

而他，比我更难受，他很了我两年。

两年，我没直视过我，没特地和我打招呼。

我全然不知道，他受得伤，好深。

今年，他离校。

之前他发了一封讯息给我，

说以前他恨了我好久，为什么从前的回忆到现在只能是一种幻影?

可是他说每每我大方地向他打招呼，他觉得自己很小器。

他决定，把我放进回忆里。

那是他曾经的爱。

他在高一那年打算等我们在一起后送我一条项链，

可是最后他送了我一幅画，说着的是我们不会有的结局。

他知道我常生病，常不开心。

他比我更知道我。

现在的他，在taylor's。

他比我更知道几时考试，时时提醒我不要生病，多照顾。

我依然内疚。

我不知道，我心中的疤痕伤害了他。

这是为什么我那么敏感。没人知道我是这样的一个女生。

朋友你常说：“不像你喔……”

这才是我，那脆弱、敏感、受伤害的我。

"Stil misssing u randomly"

"sorry i drunk yesterday, but i stil mis u."

我是否该后悔,还是这就是他要给我的折磨？

我不知道。可是我知道，我们不可能会在一起了。

我知道他好，可是我知道我不好。

不想他在他女朋友面前还想着我，我没那么好让你继续爱下去。

对不起，samuel，我只能对你说。

除了谢谢你曾经的深爱，再也没有什么说了。

俊豪，你太像他了。

that's all.... conclusion, what i did is just because of love a girl.. i hope one day pig will understand me as my friend.. whole day gone just like this.. i started seldom see pighead... am i still miss her? or am i slowly forgotten her? wuwu~.~

The 55th day without her

2007-10-29T18:33:00.000+08:00

Actually today don't have any class, but we receive a message from our lecturer that our site visit to church is on today. wuwu~.~ i need to reach at college quite early... so lazy to wake up.. =( because me and kay li talked on the phone for more than an hour.. hey girl, if you see this, i do apologize at here.. because of what i said that hurt you.. actually, i knew very long time ago... but i thought you knew that is my attitude.. i thought you knew me "well"... ^^ this afternoon, i find my friends to drink again... this time with sa poh's friends... we did a stupid thing when wanted to go back. all of us follow michelle and all sit into her car.. and play around inside the car.. =) piG ya piG... nothing... good luck!!

The 54th day without her

2007-10-29T18:28:00.001+08:00

today, IBS class canceled but we still went to college as usual time for complete our project.. i really felt damn to my members... some did like hell... some did like heaven.. angry? hate him? what to do? after class, y.chwen wanted to capture his new house at Bandar Utama 6. we went there, wow!! cool man those houses... so beautiful.. but, when i went in........ the design was sucks! the toilet space is so small... wuwu~.~ i said before that i wanted to bring pighead to One Utama shopping complex but... do i have this chances? huhh... miss you piG!

The 53th day without her

2007-10-29T18:17:00.000+08:00

a stupid day.. wuwu~.~ just went to college listen to friend presentation.. next monday only my turn.. so lazy.... i hate lazy... i wanted to be hardworking.. but its hard.. =( because of i went back home early, i went to drink with friends.. actually, wanted to cancel but at last also went to meet them.. then went to paradise. at night, I went to kepong jusco with kay li for watch a movie... I do have many nice movie haven’t watch. we watched “brother”. quite a okay movie.. not too bored just normal.. this was my first time went to kepong jusco, from the outer, you will fell that the building is big, but when you be inside the building, you will fell the building was not as big as you imagine.. after finish show, I rushed back to send her back to hostel... how are you??? "wo yao ni hao hao guo" ~.~

The 52th day without her

2007-10-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

today, i only have a class... that is building construction and today was the last lecture. we went early to do our project... we almost done it.. but i think we will modify it to make it more best! ... came back home, i have a nap. i wanted to fetch my sister but i took a long nap.. =) now feel more tired.. wuwu~;~ tomorrow some of my classmate will be present.. good luck to them! but me? so lazy.. still wasting time ... if can, i have to do some research after bath and dinner.. my independent friend finished their UEC exam by today.. congratulation! kay li was one of my friend.. yesterday, i mentioned something i did not to say but i doesn't know it.. so sorry.. i knew that this wasn't the first time like that.. =) i do apologize here.. piGhead, how are you??? everything fine? miss ya! my friend Mikoa sent me a song.. a very touch song!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Y-vM8I5jaE my tear also gonna drop while listening to it.. i hope one day, i send this song to pighead..

The 51th day without her

2007-10-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

a stupid day in college..!! due to my semester going to end, many subject almost finished teach therefore today, only english class then went back home.. wuwu~.~ too bad.. i asked my friend to help me on the game command and conquer but he also no idea on it.. so sad.. can't play.. too free for me so i called friends to drink.. i lazy to push myself to complete my assignment.. many assignment had delay to next week.. =( good or bad? night, i also didn't do anything..

The 50th day without her

2007-10-23T18:33:00.001+08:00

this is the 50 days that we didn't talk to each other.. equals to i miss her 50 days.. well.. i can't hope much, just hope she exam well... good luck! as usual, went to scout activity then went back home.. scouting is a good activity for youth, for me, i am learning more and more through teaching them but if you didn't use your heart to do, learn anything also useless! 2 something, me and joey went to eat and i went his house to do assignment. i wanted to do in house but the F...er's bitch find him..! therefore they used this room.. wuwu~ damn angry that time! but at joey's house, i did quite much.. lucky didn't wasted my time.. "zhao quen" owe me and joey a cup of drink.. yeah yeah! i don't whether is recently my mood was not in a good condition, i miss her less.. lack of think of her.. recently many things happened to me.. i believed that time will cure my sadness..

The 49th day without her

2007-10-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

lazy to wake up in this morning.. i be late at ah teo there.. today he get mad of us.. after class we went to have lunch.. i did not eat, i wanted to eat but maybe too tired... wuwu~~ after that i fetched friend go back.. then me and si fatt guai chit chat in the car for more than 4 hours!! that time raining, that's why... some more if i went back home, i can't do anything.. raining can't online also.. therefore chat and chat, chat until so late.. we have intimated in that time.. played around.. . . . wuwu ~.~ is it a good thing for me? recently i didn't online because the damn people! i wanted to do assignment at night time, while i passed the computer for my sister a while, i sleep because very tired then when i awaken, my brother using! F...! !@#$%^&* wuwu~~

The 48th day without her

2007-10-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday night, i canceled my movie plan and joined sa poh's friends for drink, c.wai also there and k.hoe came at last. good news and bad news!!! before bad news, i said my good news first , i checked my eyes at eyes specialist, i can wear glasses !! yeah! =) left eye 70++ while right eye 20++. last time i always wanted to wear glasses.. now, the chance come true.. but for my face, the shape of my face not suit to wear glasses.. wuwu~~ bad news come! in my 17 years life, i cried twice the most, one was when i am form three, another was this evening! both of this, this was the first time i cried so seriously! i think i won't mention what happened through here. is related my last year birthday's present and all about my brother, he such an idiot and rubbish! 23 years old still don't know think! wasted time! don't know learn from mistake! still think that he is always the right..! you think you are MR RIGHT ya? no, you are not! you are MR WRONG!! some times some memories we can't buy it.. but he destroy my unforgettable memory! at that time, i wanted to call pighead but i know i cant... therefore i massaged si fatt guai, she was outside. at that moment, i need some one console me, talk to me. lastly, i called su yin. we chatted for about 8 minutes because i finished my hand phone's credit. my eyes was very "zhong"... wuwu~~ at night, i wanted go out and not staying at home. actually i wanted find tan ting but she was dating with sa poh. at this i need some one who can accompany me, i don't want stay at home.. but disappointed.. while watching movie waiting for sleep, friend called me for celebrate for her birthday.. then i drove because no more space for me.. i slept at 5am.. cool man! super the tired! first time i saw so the cake so big.. every one eat until want vomit.. wuwu~~

The 47th day without her

2007-10-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

group work? what is group work? what is the define of group work? next week have to pass up this project... we just done it less than half but i heard my friend joseph said that ours is done the most in whole class.. happy? i don't think so... give idea can improve our project, but give idea without action, whats the different between give an idea and didn't action? equals to none! well... i hope it can be done before due date.. gamble with love?? am i gambling with love? i don't think so.. but one of my friend said that i gambling with her... called me don't gamble anymore... don't wait chance.. action now to get chance.. wuwu ~.~ what i got to do? i just can pray for her -exam good luck!! mentally support her whenever she is sad or in a trouble matter... don't later will go watch resident evil or not... i did messaged my friend and called her but still can't get through her... wuwu~.~

The 46th day without her

2007-10-17T18:42:00.000+08:00

wuwu~~ i wanted to sleep more today... super tired... because of . . . "boil porridge" wit sa poh... more than 2 hours.. oh my god... sorry that not trusted you but at last i also will trust you, who called you as sa poh... i learn a theory called theory Y... she taught me when i told her what happened to me.. there are 2 theory which is theory Y and theory X, Y is positive while X is negative. that means she wanted me to be happy.. ^^ sometimes many incident that had happened cannot say that forget about it, then will be forget.. the scars inside my heart is the history of me. today i knew a new friend, his name is "kent". quite a handsome boy.. actually we had been same class for certain subject.. at first, i thought he was a cool guy that don't like to talk but when today we helped each other, i felt that this guy not as cool as i imagine.. same as love stuff, i don't what is her thinking now, i can felt that she avoiding me... is very obviously, i knew it since i drink with my friends.. i felt so sad about what had happened to her.. i really wanted to accompany her... give her caring as much as i can... every girls need cares.. i knew she needs more and more cares... she is going to have her final exam if i am not mistaken.. today, i think an idea for myself. my birthday is coming this november, i don't is she coming back to celebrate with me or not... she said that will accompany(last time).. therefore, i planned that tell her that i will be waiting her at a restaurant near by our area, i will wait her about few hours for her to come, if she don't appear, i think i know what should i do... but, if this step goes wrong... i will regret again in my life.. i am still considering... sa poh knew that i don't want they celebrate for me... i also don't know why... and i can't said i 100% don't want they celebrate... just . . . =( well, pighead, i hope you will appreciate our relation, our sweetest memory..

The 45th day without her

2007-10-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

my life was supporting with several of friend such as- eefang(australia), chow hong, siao ying, pui yee. not bad what.. even i lost trusted through several of friend, i still have many supporters! i storied my sadness to 2 friend yesterday, one is xiao hua chi, another is p.y mei... i felt more better... while i am storying to them, i really sad... but when i turned on the music, i felt more and more better.. i heard a friend said before, if she sad, listening to music, everything will be fine... she is sa poh... she likes "tong fang shen qi", a crazy fans of them especially a guy called U-KNOW. stressful always come when semester is going to end.. i still have many assignment to go on and today added one more project which is capturing and recording, group of at least 5, our group have 7.. i started like my new style.. some will laugh towards me but i won't mind, because this decision was made by myself.. i can't regret, i will just appreciate it.. as well as love stuff. i didn't regret like her, i will appreciate what we did before, our memories will won't lost in my mind! i often saw her online while i online, her sister was one of the coolest girl... i did chat with her recently but until half way, she will be disappear. =( always like that one. later on, i will try my best to do my assignment! thanks my friends who support me!!

The 44th day without her

2007-10-15T14:06:00.000+08:00

a cool barbecue party... first time i drunk so much alcohol-beer, red wine and whiskey. i hope can get drunk.... but just dizzy... k.tat vomited .. ^^ yesterday, we played until 1something... because k.tat can not carry on more alcohol already.. if he continue, he might over night at there or i drive... =) friend can be trusted in our life for forever? for me, i changed my view... my trusted friend is becoming less and less.. i wanted to be alone.. seriously, i get very disappointed to my buddy... lied to me because of ... he said that, "is buddy only tell me the truth.." what the hack man! bull shit!~ recently i am not in a happy mood.. i just wanted to get drunk... sleep well... no think, no doubt, no worries in my life.. if these come to my life, my life equals to disable person. i just finished a movie "shui yue fung wan". i learned that we can failed in career, studies, ... because it can be stand up again and do it from the beginning but once relationship lost, it will hard to recover the relationship. same as me and pigheaD.. once our relationship stop, i will lost her as well as she will lost me too.. therefore, i really hope she give me one more chance.. i don't want to lost you!!

The 43th day without her

2007-10-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

Happy? very funny!!!....i didn't even get a little bit happy.. i messaged her but she didn't reply... i had took the initiative to message her... what you want ya? about yesterday night party, i looked very moody... sit alone... didn't talk much... just different from myself.. but i tried my best to cheer after the party... actually we decided to go black hole for drink... but at last we didn't, we went to imbi road for "tong sui", full of people... then we changed our plan to kepong.. that shop didn't open, maybe closed already. therefore we went 1st station... i told this secret to m.hoe... i don't he can keep his promise or not.. i trust him, therefore i told him... hope he keep his promise.. i don't want lost YOU... i admit that i regret to my action but i don't have choice.... hope you give me a chance or maybe let me know what you feel or what you want me to do.... let me know better than i don't anything... i messaged her twice but she also didn't reply.. she angry me? or ???? i wanted to know what she is thinking about me... i am very tired now... i slept at about 4am... 8something get up for scouting.... oh my god... my assignment!! later night, i have a barbecue party at friend's house... lucky tomorrow is holiday.. yahoo~~ pighead, i still like you very much..................................... time will allow me forget you? i don't wish to... i remembered you said don't want lost me......... do you remember???

The 42th day without her

2007-10-13T14:38:00.000+08:00

what will going to happen today??? am i excited to know?? yes... i admit but i seems like don't what to do.. bullshit me!!! spent most time watched on "shui yue fong wan".. so tired... tonight, what am i got to do at there? cheer? or what? =( may be after their celebration, i will go black hole with k.tat, but don't know will him "put aeroplane" .. before go there, i will go play archery to open my mood... ^^ happpy...!!

The 41th day without her

2007-10-13T02:22:00.000+08:00

holiday for four day... because of hari raya.... my parents and my sister and others relative just went Singapore.. i didn't follow.. these few days, i am busying go out... ^^ this noon, i went ate ice with si fatt guai... then actually i wanted to watch movie with my "buddy"... everything was fine at first.. then he said changed to small genting then go black hole for drink(alcohol) but at last everything canceled.. bullshit again!!! the only way went out was with c.wai, s.ying and k.hoe.. actually we wanted to discuss whether tomorrow noon wanted to go out or not.. but at last, result with none... bull bull bullshit!! my mood was not in a good condition.. when we were going back.. so lucky that didn't happened any accident.. but almost.. so scary.. ^^.. sorry k.hoe and s.ying.. i won't drive with emotion any more.. i will try my best to avoid... that time, i really moody about piGhead.. tomorrow night, i am still considering am i going to the celebration... i knew that i will be silent for the whole process... i think mostly i will go... maybe.. i cut my hair today.. a new branded of me.. a girl style hair.... ^^ have to style it then only looks nice, wise.. ^^ without styled my hair, it looks like shit! ugly !!!!! pigheaD, i really wanted to find you... miss you a lot... can't use any words to describe how much i miss you.. this 41 days, i really so blurred with my life.. i hope ... ... ... night!

The 40th day without her

2007-10-13T01:51:00.001+08:00

FUCKING DAMN hate my fucking brother!! betray me!!! what kind of brother? last time i always protect him by not telling mum anything about he smoke, he went out silently at midnight, now? i just chit chattering with si fatt guai 3-5am.. before that, i rushing my auto cad assignment... my sir said "great" on my work when he viewed... at night, me, c.wai, s.ying, k.hoe and s.ling went to night market.. i thought that was just a while... at last, i get home at 12something.. bullshit! i bathed with a super cheap soap only!! my parents locked their room, didn't left any soap for me to bath... so sad... after night market, they decided go k.hoe's house watch ghost movie.. before went there, they fetch me back and had my dinner.. because i haven't eat anything... at k.hoe's house- stupid bored ghost movie, then we changed to funny movie.. watched a bit then every one went off don't want watch... wuwu~~ then we used different ID to chat with different people... quite bad but fun... my heart felt not quite comfortable towards her... don't know how to describe...